extraordinary

someday ...

2009-09-23T06:59:00.003+07:00

90 miles outside chicago
Cant stop driving
I dont know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later
Youre still on my mind
Whatever happened to emilia earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Is true love once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the titanic cry

Someday well know
If love can move a mountain
Someday well know
Why the sky is blue
Someday well know
Why I wasnt meant for you
Does anybody know the way to atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
Im speeding by the place where I met you
For the 97th time tonight

Someday well know
Why samson loved delilah
One day Ill go
Dancing on the moon
Someday youll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why arent you here with me?

Someday well know
Why sampson loved delilah
One day Ill go
Dancing on the moon
Someday youll know
That I was the one for you

seeing you in february was great
Cliches eventually all come true
Time heals all wounds
I went to get us our 9th drink
And you ran out the door with another guy
I woke up on the floor with my shoes on
A smile on my face and I didnt even care

*someday we'll know . new radical

:)

2009-09-21T00:12:00.001+07:00

love my family . <3

minal aidzin wal faidzin .

have a great idul fitri !!! :)

2009-09-20T22:19:00.003+07:00

family time was amazing . i love my family, even now i just have limited time to spend with them, but i always be grateful to God for giving me fantastic family.
and i swear i will do my best for make them happy . :)

2009-09-19T08:31:00.003+07:00

picture

Well, i through this two weeks and find something interesting . a fake .
That someone's life could be so tricky and have a plot that they planned .
i know a few of people have a big desire for getting something like having a power, getting some good position or getting some good place . all i know that people can be so hypocrite and two-faced . and sometimes the ego can makes themself kick their friend's face for make themself have a good image. Hmm. Life needs a plot, thats right, a plot and strategy to make us still alive and keep the sane .

happy last fasting day !

welcome the day of purity, Lebaran day .
lets planned something good for our life !!!

cheers .

framing .

2009-08-29T23:59:00.002+07:00

webcam's and photoshop always can makes me stop thinking about one fresh ice tea, and voila !!! beduggg maghrib !!! hehehe .

happy fasting day 2009

xoxo

kembali untukmu .

2009-08-27T19:42:00.004+07:00

Terjaga ku diujung pagi
Bawa ku nikmati indah duniawi
Sendiri bertanya dihati
Akankah semuanya akan abadi

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali untuk-Mu

Ku yakini nikmat yang Kau beri
Segalanya pada-Mu ‘kan kembali

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali

Ku pejamkan sejenak mataku
Ku buka hatiku sebelum ku kembali untuk-Mu

*kotak .

kadangkala . rasanya susah luar biasa untuk bersyukur . kadang juga capek. secapek-capeknya fisik, rasa-rasanya masih bisa ditahan . tapi kalau sudah capek hati... Entahlah .
Kadang-kadang rasanya begitu memicu rasa marah, jika marah saja masih bisa tertahankan, tapi jika marah itu bercampur dengan kesedihan yang luar biasa mendalam.
Entahlah, mungkin masih harus ada evaluasi ulang, memperbaiki semuanya .
semoga, di bulan puasa ini . Semuanya bisa jadi lebih baik .

Bulan dimana harus belajar, menahan dalam-dalam emosi .
Bukan kemarahan yang harus dipendam dan menanamkan kebencian itu lebih dalam, tapi bagaimana bisa merubahnya menjadi ikhlas, belajar membuka hati. Menerima hidup lebih apa adanya. Tanpa pretensi yang berlebih, tidak menuntut banyak, selalu bersyukur, belajar menjadi yang lebih baik .

Happy Fasting day 2009 .

hip hip hoorayy !

2009-08-27T13:50:00.007+07:00

holiday just for a weeks !!! :) i know, noone says this gonna be easy . but hey , i will survive, through that all with focus with my target and do it all with a happiness.
just enjoy it all. Do your best . and everything gonna be alright . i believe wherever i am, i will saving by my saviour. my Lord Allah SWT , because i always can count on You, my beloved God .

:)

unforgettable 2 weeks .

2009-08-27T12:56:00.004+07:00

Well, last 2 weeks i go to singkawang at secata B to follow the basic training of dicipline . Hmm at first i just feel down and not really enthusiastic with that dicipline's. But time by time, i get a precious lesson there for manage time, for doing the important and basic thing first. Without handphone, internet or even communicate with family. I learn how to focus, about the military that understate everyone there as a big family, and pass all together, happy or sad .
I got many new friends that so kind and have a different characters that makes me more and more learn to have extra patience, extra heart to received any condition with all of my friend, the unconditional love. Happy and Sad, i sure i can through it all .
:)

at end of this month i will go again, to follow the new life at my new college. I just hope i can study seriously to reaching all of my dreams then. Well, my only hope is just for getting success for myself and can makes my family proud and happy with me. And can be the independent woman that can makes my family happy and getting wealth .
ameen .

go go girls !

:)

i will survive, yeah !!!

2009-08-26T22:18:00.001+07:00

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how youd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.

And so youre back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If Id have known for just one second
Youd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Youre not welcome anymore.
Werent you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think Id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die?
Oh not i.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know Ill be alive.
Ive got all my life to live.
Ive got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
Im trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And youll see me with somebody new.
Im not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought youd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now Im saving all my lovin
For someone whos lovin me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Youre not welcome anymore.
Werent you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think Id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die?
Oh not i.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know Ill be alive.
Ive got all my life to live.
Ive got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

bigbro .

2009-08-08T03:24:00.007+07:00

Just kill-time for holiday, my brother's picture!
I just love him so much ! *kiss kiss* >.<'
*nge-edit ini apa gara" liat berita noordin m top ? weh. i hope he will not disturb our life and our country with bomb anymore*

peace ! :)

giggle

2009-08-07T23:22:00.004+07:00

Sometimes i just don't care about anything. Really, i don't care. I just enjoy it all. Close my eyes and being happy alone. LOL . Sometimes i don't really need a friend, even a boyfriend if they asking too much. -.- . You know, i don't really like to spend my time to keep busy with that thing. I have a Big dreams to achieve and i want to getting success when i still young and still have a power to enjoying the successfull. LOL . Lets hope the best. :)

L O S T

2009-08-07T22:35:00.003+07:00

Aku lemas
Tapi berdaya
Aku tidak sambat rasa sakit
atau gatal

Aku pengin makan tajin
Aku tidak pernah sesak nafas
Tapi tubuhku tidak memuaskan
untuk punya posisi yang ideal dan wajar

Aku pengin membersihkan tubuhku
dari racun kimiawi

Aku ingin kembali pada jalan alam
Aku ingin meningkatkan pengabdian
kepada Allah

Tuhan, aku cinta padamu

(WS RENDRA)

Well, sometimes i think about death. A little afraid.
But i more afraid if lost someone i care about, people i loved.

cheers .

say cheese !

2009-08-02T00:39:00.007+07:00

my captured today . yeyy .

-if you can't shoot just click-
:myself with the mirror :):

-Headbang our world-
:my friend mayy:

cheers up

2009-07-30T23:05:00.002+07:00

Life changes every second. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Well, every single thing always have a price. The precious thing, need a precious sacrifice too. But i believe, problem and sacrifice is just about our respond and our perception to face it.
So, stay strong and just keep staying alive.

cheers for our awesome life.

yippi

2009-07-27T22:06:00.007+07:00

yey, finally me and my friend,vira get this university, like scholarship because its free. :) and i pass The 7 test before which is very depends by lucky, i think. Welcome dormitory and i must cut my hair shortly but i will get DSLR from my dad as a gifts. Hey dude, everything have a price. Well, Sounds boring but i don't care because i still have many dream to catch. But i feel relieved because one of my goal was accomplish. Now i can write 'check' on my notes. yippi . Thanks God. Now i can go again and do something with my life and try to get my own life, to not depend on someone else and do more, try best to makes my parent satisfy and give my parents a big smile for growing me.

:)

webcam's insomniac !

2009-07-25T03:47:00.000+07:00

harrypotterism

2009-07-24T02:12:00.003+07:00

watching harpot yesterday and cool. Anyway, i like the character of Luna Lovegood, may its sounds weird but i just love the personality at harpot. mysterious, sexy, and dare-to-being-different.

But, my role model character, favourites, still Hermione Granger. So smart and sophisticated !

2009-07-23T00:42:00.000+07:00

icanreadtumblr

iyeeyyy .

erh erh erhh

2009-07-22T11:53:00.001+07:00

i see this at tumblr . and just fell like 'yeah, absolutely right! robert pattinson, LOL'

xoxo

2009-07-15T21:24:00.002+07:00

Kau peluk aku sebelum membunuhku
Tersenyum melihatku merenung melihatmu
Kau menungguku menunggu ku terjatuh
Setiap langkah tertuju setia dalam menunggu

Aku menunggumu menunggumu menunggumu mati
Didepanku didepanku didepanku

Kau peluk aku sebelum membunuhku
Tersenyum melihatku merenung melihatmu

Aku menunggumu menunggumu menunggumu mati
Didepanku didepanku didepanku

Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku
Mengapa tak kau tunjukkan dihadapanku
Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku
Dibelakangku dibelakangku dibelakangku....
Dibelakangku

Aku menunggumu menunggumu menunggumu mati
Didepanku didepanku didepanku

a life, huh ?

2009-07-06T22:28:00.009+07:00

well, i’m not a complained that always argue, asking and pushing someone to do something. I’m not an anarchy person that will be so angry and put a gun. I’m not an emo that may feeling so mellow and feel down. I’m just an ordinary human that also have a limit. Just have a little strength to through all of this.

This is a way out to makes myself feel free. I don’t know. Like Lenka’s said, “i’m just a little girl caught in the middle, life is a maze, and love is a riddle”

and like baldybodhi saids : BORN, CONSUME,MATES AND DIE. A holly circle. For a God’s sake. I just need a peace, a save-place where i can spend all my hobby and makes my dream getting real. Even i still don't know what i'm looking for. But, is that the point we are still have life, isn't it ? If we can find and can finish our job in this world, then isn't it means we are dead enough ? Well, I just need more strength to through this. But in my deepest heart...
I sure i can through this.
Well, keep motivated.

cheers up !

singing

2009-07-06T08:06:00.002+07:00

Kita berdua hanya berpegangan tangan
Tak perlu berpelukan
Kita berdua hanya saling bercerita
Tak perlu memuji

Kita berdua tak pernah ucapkan maaf
Tapi saling mengerti
Kita berdua tak hanya menjalani cinta
Tapi menghidupi

Ketika rindu, menggebu gebu, kita menunggu
Jatuh cinta itu biasa saja
Saat cemburu, kian membelenggu, cepat berlalu
Jatuh cinta itu biasa saja

Jika jatuh cinta itu buta
Berdua kita akan tersesat
Saling mencari di dalam gelap
Kedua mata kita gelap
Lalu hati kita gelap
Hati kita gelap
Lalu hati kita gelap

efek rumah kaca- jatuh cinta itu biasa saja

yeah, jatuh cinta itu... biasa saja ...

rain's season

2009-07-03T22:00:00.007+07:00

hmm . some random pictures at my webcam.
a rainy day, with a hot cappucinno, and MJ's playlist.
what a maze day today.
and i never had an idea where life will bring me after this.
i dont know, absolutely don't have an idea.

hell yeah,
i don't care.
just enjoy this day more than ever.

well, i try do my best .
try to staying alive .

ckckck, boys !

2009-07-03T15:11:00.004+07:00

ckckck
boys !
why sometimes they just screw up our mind.
i watched transformers 2 at xxi last saturday
and melt,
i means REALLY melting seeing Josh Duhamel.
What a @#$%, LOL .
i hope i can find hmm,
similar guy like that and can make him mine ! =P
but i think i almost find it.

not sooo similar. but i think. i got crush !
d*mn, recently i just got a crush and crush,
i crush into somebody, and maybe tomorrow
the boy will be someones different.
LOL . I think i want to stop feel this silly feeling.
or i just want to enjoy it.
but i think i can hurt people's feeling with what i do *evilgrin*

hey, i am single!
and i have a choice !
then, before i have "a relationship state"
am i do wrong if i just selected and see ...

but at least i know that boy must makes me melting like Josh Duhamel !
OMG . He's so hot ! LOL

goodnight...

2009-07-03T13:04:00.006+07:00

aku benci
ketika aku menjadi orang
yang membuat senyummu tak ada lagi
aku membenci diriku sendiri
ketika aku membuat keputusan
yang aku pun tak tau benar atau salah

aku benci
ketika aku harus merasa bersalah
dengan apa
yang aku bahkan tak tahu
menyakitimu atau tidak

aku benci
ketika tak tahu apa apa
tentang dirimu
bahkan sejak dulu
aku tak pernah benar-benar yakin
tentang apa yang kau rasakan
aku tak mau dengar orang lain
ini tentang kita

dan aku benci ...
sedikit membencimu
ketika kau pergi
seperti ada sesuatu yang hilang

dan bahkan aku tak tahu apa yang telah kau hilangkan
ia memang ada
dia yang...
kurasa lebih mencintaiku
daripada kamu
kamu yang tidak pernah bilang apa-apa
kamu yang tidak pernah
berusaha membuktikan apa-apa

lalu, kenapa 24 jam sehari
aku masih bisa mendengar suara tentang kita ?

p.s :
thank you for
the amazing memories
you bring to my life,
it will last forever,
i swear...