what i really want in life ?

Sometimes, i feel like i want to be really egoist that regret what i do.  Like now, sometimes i feels like i want to give up this situation.  But then i think, its not too bad.  I still can survive and pleased my parents with what i do.  I can pleased my self too.  Too much thing if i spent time just to regret.  Now i just will do best at where i do now.  Focus and reach the best, may be the way of what i want its hard and different, but it is one path and its not impossible to reach.  Just trying hard to be happy at what i do right now, i still, i still can survive, i believe that.