First Run in October

Wake up in the morning, feeling the smells of the morning, with little rain, making your (literally) heart tired and thirsty, until your feet feels something after all the rest day, busy with routines and laziness.  Even after that i feel dizzy (too long not having a run), its feel satisfied to check one of your list to run in the morning, even the result is not there yet.  

I ever heard about someone that is obsessed to feed their ego to checklist all their to do list. I think im in the middle, i feel satisfied when i checked too, but its not the point, i think the poin is to doing something, that is based by your thought.  To run, (hopefully) loss some weight, see the sun rise, take a picture of it while enjoying the music with headset.  Its a good way to start a morning... if you are not continuing this with sleeping... but wash and go to work with some high spirit, when before writing this post, because you want to post daily and making some kind of journal after your birthday.  Well... okay then...

Have a good day at the Friday, 13th october 2017 , everyone!

Midnight Sneakpeek

23.05 a.m

Still cant sleep, thinking so much thing while my wifi just broke down and using my smartphone hotspot.  The horror story in a digital age: running out connection. 

Now Capturing : My space, my cat.

 

Working Or Not?

Hello, I'm Mocca The Queen.

Creative Spot

Now Reading : The Architecture of Love - Ika Natassa

Now Watching : Tonight Show

picture from here

16/11/2016

Traveling and Teaching

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1000 Guru Kalbar

Traveling and Teaching 5

Location : SDN. 13 Teluk Pakedai, Desa Sungai Nibung, 

Kecamatan Teluk Pakedai, Kabupaten Kubu Raya

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“I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn't know who I was - I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I'd never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creak of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn't know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds. I wasn't scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost.” 

― Jack Kerouac, On the Road

For me, traveling is something personal, something i will do with my trusted friend, with someone i know.  Why? Because i love the strange feelings i had when i'm on travel.  When i saw strange person in the eye and found some little piece of myself in their eyes.  Like somehow i know in a distance, far far away i know i will keep finding something familiar in the most strange things. 

At that moment i love how people have something in common : sharing.  To share love, to someone that we think have less than us, to share happines with things, to someone that we think dont have things like us, or life like us.  But going in this journey makes me realize something, its not me that giving something, its them.  Its them that keep living, not giving up in the darkness of the light, to keep having hope, keep going out even at the situation that we cant possibly think we can make it through. 

Its us, having a lesson.  To feeling gratitude and be the best version of ourself, to keep on trying even the hard path are laughing off our face, to keep praying and trusting God about the way we will live on.  To keep going.  So, thank you.

#TNT5 #1000gurukalbar

16/09/2016

Sunday Journal

T h i n k i n g

Of course there is something missing in my life.  Who didnt? 

When most my friends wanting to getting married, have a beautiful children, build a house.  Then here i am, wanting something else.  I know if i push my self to be in that position, i will get it too.  But, i dont think i really want that now.  I even dont really know what i want, but i know, i will figure it out.  Looking at my friends with all their problem, there will always a problem with any stages of your life, then, why in rush to get out of this one common question at my ages, when will you get married? Soon, when the time is right, like, you will just know when things are right.  But if you ask if im happy? yes, i always try to be happy at any moment and dont judge people for craving different happiness than you.  I hope i will always be in a good circumstances that not let me in a hurry to do anything 'they' want. Not me.

W a t c h i n g

I watching a lot of movie these days and make a list of it :

1. Suicide Squad

2. Burnt

3. How To Be a Single

4. Whiplash

5. Singstreet

6. A Hologram For The King

7.  Finding Dory

8.  Zootopia

9.  Term Life

10.  Wild

11. Our Brand Is Crisis

12. Joy

13.  Victor Frankenstein

14. Exposed

15.  Standoff

And try some of Bollywood Movie:

1.  Sanam Teri Kasam

2.  Baajrangi Bhaijan

Following some of korean drama series :

1.  Doctors

2.  Uncontrollably Fond

3.  W

4.  Lets Fight Ghost

5.  Beautiful Mind  

R e a d i n g

1.  Harry Potter : And The Cursed Child ; J.K Rowling.

2.  What Got You Here Won't Get You There : Marshall Golsmith & Mark Reiter.

C a p t u r i n g

Random shots, maybe my camera goals not gonna happen shortly and my old camera is still broken. So i just try to capture it with my camera phone, and try to enjoy it.

W o r k i n g

Office makes me a little bit busy than before.  All the intense that makes me must collecting data then make the collective report makes me a little bit busy.  Then improving my english with taking a class 2 days a week.  

E x e r c i s i n g

Quiting gym after being a member for one month, now start to arrange some schedule to playing badminton again.

L i s t e n i n g

Random Playlist this week :

1. Ruang Sendiri - Tulus 

2. Sendu Melagu - Barasuara

3.  Menuju Senja - Payung Teduh

4. I Hate U, I Love U - Gnash & Olivia O'Brien

5. Why - Taeyeon

6.  Sledgehammer - Rihanna

7.  Heathens - Twenty One Pilots

8.  Skrillex - Weekends!
9.  Skrillex ft. Fatman Scoop - Squad Out!

10.  How To Love - Cash Cash ft Sofia Reyes.

The People

So my office just organize a social event that give a coupon to poor people by the RT/Neighboorhood Association that will allow you to buy rice, egg, milk, palm oil for 60k while its real price is around 100k.  While organize this the committee also prepared by police to secure the event.  Right on point there is so many people come and claim as 'poor' people and asking for more coupons, with all of their explanation.  Mostly because they watch a person that bring about 5 coupons alone and think she is collution to robbed their rights to buy cheaper things.  Today i learn so much more about people, that they can do anything, and bring out the ugly thing, jealousy, greedy, complaining something that maybe they dont need to, mistrust, act poor but show up as rich, lying and have no asshame to take other people's right.  This event kinda bring out the worst on people.  The angry mass/mob that acting out because they know they have many people behind them, and the logical fallacy.  I know that sometimes, the worst going out in me too. Sometimes i know when it goes out, sometimes i dont.  Whatever it is, i hope all of us could have strength and encourage to admit our fallacy, our fault and have a bigger heart to correct ourself, and have more concern to put ourself better than before.

2nd week of June

currentlythink : This ramadhan is kinda memorable for me, just hang out and chill, nothing to targeted yet.  Watching movie, do some work, more serial to watch, still dont have any book to finish, thinking about doing something that have matters, but still cant get out of comfort zone, set up some goals and failed.  Not finished yet, not grinding yet, wake up and routine, need more hobby and things to do.  Need more social interaction with my lack of interest being misunderstood, but i know i can survive here and get something i need.

currentlywatch :

XXI's Movie
1. Now You See Me 2
2. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles : Out Of Shadow
3. The Conjuring 2 

Now you see me 2 is really entertaining, amusing and just inspire your brain to functionally works lol. While TMNT just good and cool, The Conjuring is one of my hate-love relationship with thrilling horror that makes me want to close my eyes and ears all the time. Just. Dont. Like. Good. Horror.

TvSeries

1. Legends Of Tomorrow Season 1

2. The Catch Season 1

3. Supernatural Season 11

Legends of Tomorrow makes me like it after few episodes and now kinda makes me attempt to watch another serial, while supernatural is just good and fun to watch but just it, while The Catch is surprisingly good after bad 1st episode and makes me crazy about it after the 9th episodes, hopes Shonda give me something close like my fav serial all the time, lie to me, the mentalist, scandal (the beginning season), revenge, sherlock holmes, bones, game of thrones, collar crime, perception, that makes me waiting the next season (now i cant wait to watch the 2nd season of the catch too) and makes me always want to watch it till the episode's end without makes me being boring in the middle of it.

currentlyhangout : Shabu Tan(Chinese Restaurant)- to breakfasting, kinda cost but have a good design and comfortable sofa(not the one at the picture), not really like the shabu-shabu like how i loved at Sari Bento, but have so many option at the menu.  And can find my fav drink here, sourplum iced.

*Shabu with Mix Soup -Medium Pack for two people

currentlylistening:
Keeping Me Alive - Bob Moses (One of The Catch- Soundtrack at 6th Episode).