once again?

my heart is torn apart
everytime your imagery
touch my fingers

i wish i was there
i wish we could go back
to my happiest moment
when im with you

im still here, watching the sky falls
when you already move on
and be the happiest person on earth

sometimes i wish
i could settle for less
and force the feelings

but i dont want to feel numb
and cant be the lovers
i dont want to stop in pause
when i still not ready
or am i never ready

i just waiting a chance
to feel alive again
once more

or nothing,
nothing at all.

-for my 7 July 2019