Showing posts with label lifessoundtrack. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lifessoundtrack. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Fate or random circumstance ?

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At first i would so hesitant.  Can i feel something to someone again? Dont really think my past is traumatic but almost succeed make me pull my self out from a kind of feeling from before.  I try to accept some people but it just dont work.  Then i become so pessimist.  Until i meet someone i already know, then for the first time he just call me from 1am until +-4am.  We talk a lot about absurd things, but its just the feeling i can't forget.  I never talk so much to someone after about one year i break up with my ex.  With him i just talk shit and not important things.  Then next day i just can't stop smiling.  We practically ever meet about 4 years ago, but i never really know him. Then after a few conversation, voila. Don't understand the thought that hit me. To be with someone that so far away. And face the fact that we can't meet until next three months. Really don't know what i'm doing, practically not logic but can we go back to the fact that we just human?  *excusesss... Just have a rare feeling. But i think it is worth to try. I will try my best.  Hope he would do the same. 

Dear fate or random circumstance, thankyou very much.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Rivermaya

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Its amaze  how a song could be a time machine.  To bring my memories back to the past. When you and i still together.  I remember every detail when you are drive in my car, going home.  I turn this song, rivermaya- you'll be safe here.  You may not know what it means.  But i know, and i feel safe with you, i feel the time run slowly, just peace and comfortable to be around you. Your atmosphere.  

After decade, i still turn on this music in my car, wondering, are in the parallel universe we can still be together...

You are different person now, like i am.  And i can't go back to the past, because now i have my own future.  But the song that i turn everytime i getting lonely, makes me feel closer to you.  Like the moment we shared just happen yesterday.  Like you are still mine.   Freeze the time.  
I remember our first met, at the mosque we are literally speaks, our first date at cafe near my campus, my first kiss that seems to be the last.  I remember every detail like your fragrance, your smells, your skin, your coarse hair. I remember everything.  And this song just make it perfect.  This song can makes me feel you, like, i close my eyes, and sense your existence, my feeling when you around.

I dont care maybe its sounds silly.But I can accept my fate. Then i must face one important thing, all of that is just my memory, not yours.  But sometimes i just want something to remember, something that makes me escape from present and go back a little to amazing time i had in my past.  After that, i can be more appreciate for all the things i have now.  And remember the beautiful things, believe somewhere i would have chance to get this feeling again. I believe, don't you? :)

Nobody knowsJust why we're hereCould it be fateOr random circumstanceAt the right placeAt the right timeTwo roads intertwine
And if the universe conspiredTo meld our livesTo make usFuel and fireThen knowWhere ever you will beSo too shall I be
Close your eyesDry your tears'Coz when nothing seems clearYou'll be safe here
From the sheer weightOf your doubts and fearsWeary heartYou'll be safe here
Remember how we laughedUntil we criedAt the most stupid thingsLike we were so highBut love was all that we were onWe belong
And though the world wouldNever understandThis unlikely unionAnd why it still standsSomeday we will be set free.Pray and believe
When the light disappearsAnd when this world's insincereYou'll be safe hereWhen nobody hears you screamI'll scream with youYou'll be safe here
Save your eyesFrom your tearsWhen everything's unclearYou'll be safe here
From the sheer weightOf your doubts and fearsWounded heart
When the light disappearsAnd when this world's insincereYou'll be safe here
When nobody hears you screamI'll scream with youYou'll be safe here
In my armsThrough the long cold nightSleep tightYou'll be safe here
When no one understandsi'll believeyou'll be safe,you'll be safeyou'll be safe herePut your heart in my handsYou'll be safe here
Rivermaya

Saturday, February 9, 2013

kepada yang kukecup keningnya

Wahai bintang yang terang
Cahaya yang hangat
Padang yang dingin dan tenang
Pagi berembun dalam nyanyian
Kepada yang kukecup keningnya
Tidak lagi mampu kulihat kesedihan di matamu yang indah
Cukupkan duka, sudahkan lara
Kuhapus matamu agar tak keluar lagi sendu
Kutiupkan mimpi di telingamu
Agar kau besok terbangun dan menjalani hidup lagi
Kau oase yang melesat di gurun gersang
Kau nyala api dalam malam
Yang tak pernah padam
Ceritamu tak pantas mati
Pasangmu tak perlu surut
Melesatlah,
Terbanglah tinggi setinggi tingginya
Jangan lagi menoleh ke belakang
Kepada yang kukecup keningnya
Selamat tinggal
Biarlah aku hancur berkeping
Asal cahaya di matamu yang gelap itu
Tidak mati, tidak pula meredup

Pontianak, 14 September 2012

you can listen i read it here : https://soundcloud.com/karinaoktriastra/kepada-yang-kukecup-keningnya :)

Saturday, March 17, 2012

I Miss You. So Bad




What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin for the phone to ring
It's gettin lonely livin upside down
I don't even wanna be in this town
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

What time is it where you are?
5 more days and i'll be home
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone
I been keeping busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed

I've been keepin busy all time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy
I miss you so bad
I wanna share your horizon
And see the same sunrising
Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me

I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

-  Now Listening : Jetlag verse Simple Plan ft. Kotak 

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

selamat pagi terang



Because of my friends, agy that play that song again and again then i'm influenced !!! but i love the song, melody and lyrics... Just turn on my mood.  With awkward and ugly reality that must been facing.  All the temporary happiness, sadness... You will turn to one conclusion : Life will go on.