Wednesday, August 31, 2022

mencuri raden saleh #moviereview


I always like spy, heist, or manipulative twist movies, playing with perspectives. So, watching this, even there's some part of it that feels like i want to do something else.  But most of all its good.  I like watching good Indonesian movies because the vibes, the background, the room setting was like around the corner.  


dari kecil, aku senang melihat ayahku yang akan memulai project melukisnya di setiap bulan puasa.  di masa kecil pula, aku pernah melukis 2 lukisan yang akhirnya dibingkai dan sampai sekarang salah satunya masih digantung di kamarku.  aku selalu senang melihat lukisan, apabila pada lukisan lukisan yang aku sukai, meskipun sekarang grafis, 3d semakin canggih, menatap satu objek lukisan dalam jangka waktu yang lama selalu menjadi 'healing' tersendiri. yang bisa bikin jadi melamun, memikirkan hal hal  lain, atau mengingat-ingat perasaan perasaan yang ada di dalam ketika melihat sebuah lukisan.

film ini juga membawa values kayak team work, deception, characters, seru. dalam karakter ucup, piko, sarah, gofar, tuktuk yang masing-masing punya kontribusi buat ngebawa film ini. berulang kali menekankan tentang 'kontingensi' plan, dan juga menunjukkan kegagalan dan logika - buat gak terlalu berhasil melakukan semuanya.

selalu suka after effect habis nonton film bagus, jadi terinspirasi buat olahraga biar jago berantem kayak sarah,  penuh strategi macam fella, jago ngebengkel macam gofar, jago nyetir macam tuktuk, jago melukis kayak ucup, dan punya pacar ganteng kayak piko (eh salah, dia disini ahli IT, means hacker2 typical main crypto tapi kayaknya masih agak kurang gitu vibesnya, lebih jadi kek playboy flirty2 gitu). yang jelas, film ini menghibur banget buat aku yang udah agak lama rasanya gak nonton film sejenis, dimana top  of mind film sejenis ini di kepala aku tu Ocean's Eight yang SUPER BERKESAN dan aku banget karna GIRLS POWERnya!! haha. disini juga chemistry cewek ceweknya, Sarah dan Fella juga udah seru. no catfight. haha.

my rate: 8/10

Tuesday, August 23, 2022

maybe we dont need to seek for love

Its a quote from einzelganger, who quote Rumi "taking the path of love, is a matter of letting go rather than obtaining something". It just hit me, like all this time I always blame my self for my failed relationship, the anxiety to be worth enough to be loved by someone, to be with someone, to make someone stay long enough to the serious commitment. At first its just flowing like the water that at some points it finally drained me, why i cant make it.

but deep in my heart, i know i always surrounded with the love i seek for myself, from family, friends, coworker, the kind of love i always ignoring because i only want the special one, and search for it everywhere yet i never found it. maybe i just need that simple, everyday love that looks very shallow and like it doesnt matter, but consistent and stubborn to show up everyday. maybe i need more patience, like i never had before.

its the heartbreak and more heartbreak that teaching me more about loving my self, its dissapointment and another disappointment that finally teach me to stop depending on other's love, but start creating it for yourself.

the little bit of happiness when your friends call tell they need you to be with him. as an introvert, it may makes me calm to know that i have some impact for people's live and they need me to be with them. sometimes its as simple and as happier as it is.

atau kayak sound reels IG yang lagi sering lewat itu "kalau hari hari mu tidak berwarna, jangan sedih, warnai sendiri" lol :)