Hell-o

So recently just posted my thoughts, some rambling ideas on my tumblr, and i dont know because the ad- or that link that i dont want, and whatvr happen here, i move on to here :  http://www.frozenletters.tumblr.com/ come and visit if you dont mind, or, whatever :))

Time Travel

*taken with my blackberry camera, kapuas 1 bridge @kamboja cafe*

Selalu ada kenangan disana, entah kenangan ditinggalkan atau meninggalkan, kemudian hanya duduk berjam-jam dengan segelas mochacinofrange, menikmati angin malam sambil menerawang, berusaha mengingat ingat semua hal yang telah terlalu lama lewat.  Kemudian mencoba mengingatnya dengan seorang teman yang sama, yang telah bersama melewati hari hari bertahun tahun sebelumnya ketika semua masa lalu itu adalah hal yang nyata.  Membicarakan hal yang sama, kegilaan dan kesalahan yang terus berulang, tempat itu telah berubah seiring waktu, cerita yang berubah, dengan pola pola yang sama, perasaan yang janggal, kekosongan yang aneh dan kelegaan yang tumpah ruah karena telah memuntahkannya begitu saja.  Tidak pernah ada solusi yang muncul, tidak pula closure, atau kesimpulan, atau penutup.  Hanya kelegaan.  Dan itu selalu lebih dari cukup.

Kadang ku tergoda untuk membuatmu berjanji, untuk selalu ada teman, tidak menghilang suatu saat tanpa kabar berita karena telah terlalu banyak hal dan mimpi yang dikejar maupun mengejar.  Berjanji untuk tidak bertemu kembali di suatu tempat dan berjarak seolah kita telah lupa akan semua yang pernah kita lewati bersama.  Berjanji untuk tidak ingkar, pula menampar dan mengingatkanku ketika aku yang berubah ingkar.

Berjanji untuk selalu ada, satu sama lain.  Tidak mengurang maupun menambah, tapi membagi habis.  Berjanji untuk masa depan, melegakan hari ini dengan pertemuan yang akan dirindukan, kemudian perpisahan yang akan selalu menjadi sementara.

Tapi janji hanyalah janji, dan yang abadi hanyalah tiada yang abadi. Maka cukuplah hari ini dengan segala.  Cukup dan terimakasih untuk ada, beserta harap yang tidak terlalu perlu, agar kita dapat bertemu di kesempatan selanjutnya.  

Jarak

Jarak, kukatakan ia pada hati yang berada jauh, disana, tiada tergapai.  Kenanganmu sejauh pelukan dan hatimu sedekat mimpi yang terlupa.  Maka pada jarak yang memisahkan hati yang tiada lagi menyatu kugenggam rinduku, pada bunga bunga yang tumbuh dalam tidur, berakar hari demi hari dalam imaji, kemudian menjadikannya memori. 

Pada dunia paralel, kau dan aku memadu rindu, atas skenario batas bawah sadarku sendiri, sejauh dekapmu, sedekat rinduku. 

Maka berikanlah aku kekuatan atas nama malam malam ketika aku terbangun dan menyadari dirimu terlalu sering hadir dalam mimpiku, hingga menuntut sebuah cerita yang terbalik.

Jika jarak bisa membuatkanku sebuah mesin waktu, untuk kembali mengulangi setiap detik, jejak nafas yang berpadu dalam waktu yang terlalu alpa menghitung jarak untuk pulang.  Maka kau adalah rumah yang selalu terlalu jauh untuk ku pulang.

Atas nama langit jingga yang mengintip sore dari balik jendela kemudian hilang sekejap mata ketika kau ingin mengabadikannya, seperti itu bayanganmu yang tiada rupa, namun berada dalam sadar, berada dalam tiada.

Suatu hari jika kau temukan awan yang terbentuk seperti cinta, putih meleraikan kapas, hancur dalam lebur tapi satu dalam janji maka itulah aku, yang telah mati dalam pengetahuanku yang terbatas tentang hatimu, berulang kali mencoba kembali namun bukan itu yang kucari tapi kau yang telah terlalu jauh pergi.

Kemudian jika kau temukan salju yang telah luruh, ingatlah aku yang merelakan diri menjadi hancur dan tiada berarti, atas nama mencintaimu. Namun tiada pernah sesal. Karena aku, hidup karenamu dan tanpamu, tiada punya arti. Lenyap dalam ada, Hadir dalam tiada.

5/12/2013

#InsightfulArticle

Basic Social Media Mistake Everyone Makes BY JEFF HADEN
This is the fourth in my series where I choose a topic, pick someone smarter than me (finding smarter people is turning out to be way easier than my ego prefers), and we trade emails. To find other articles in the series, go here, here, and here.
This time I talked to Shama Kabani, the founder and CEO of The Marketing Zen Group and the author of The Zen of Social Media Marketing.
Shama's premise: Most social media marketing efforts fail because, at a fundamental level, people don't use social media to connect with businesses--or even with each other. People use social media to showcase their own identities.Jeff: You realize this premise is completely opposite from what most people think? Social media is supposed to be about connection, not reflection. (Sorry, couldn't resist.)
Shama: And that's why most businesses get poor results. A social site is as much a digital mirror as it is a social platform. Connection starts with understanding the meaning and impact of that reflection.
Jeff: You're going to have to explain that.
Shama: I did my graduate thesis on Twitter back when it only had a few thousand users. My first questions were, "Why would people tweet? Why would they share what they are doing?"
While I was doing the research I had this light bulb moment. My original hypothesis was that we use social media to connect with each other, but I found the primary reason we use social media is to showcase our own identities.
Jeff: So we're all a bunch of narcissists.
Shama: It's not narcissistic at all. It's like in kindergarten (in a good way): You're having a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, the kid next to you says he likes peanut butter and jelly, then he says he likes blue crayons, and you like blue crayons... that's how we make friends and become who we are. We showcase our identities, and based on the reflection or reaction of other people, we tweak our identities.
The same is true when you're a teenager and, say, your friends like rock music. They wear certain clothes... so you do, too.
The only difference is that now all that is online. Think about Facebook profiles; Facebook really gets the idea that people, first and foremost, want to showcase who they are. Social media is like a mirror we hold up to show how we are unique and special.
It's like we're decorating the inside of our lockers again. We just transferred that to the Web.
The platforms have changed, but the principles of how we behave and how we express ourselves? Not really.
Jeff: I get that. A friend loves to add stuff to his Facebook timeline. I tease him because he acts like a painter finishing a masterpiece. When he's done he's a little too pleased with himself. (I know you said it's not narcissistic, but in his case I'm not so sure.)
But I'm not sure how understanding that helps a business improve its social media marketing efforts.
Shama: Here's how. Most companies still focus on the secondary aspect: Getting them to connect with us. Too many companies say, "Business is about marketing and branding. We will create a brand. We will tell people who we are."
That's backwards. Realizing that social media is a mirror forces companies to think not about what they want their brand to be, but what their brand says about the individual.
And that's why a cupcake shop can rack up more likes than a major corporation. Liking the little cupcake shop down the street says something about me as an individual: Maybe they only use organic ingredients and that's important to me. Or maybe they donate a portion of their revenue to a charity I support. In some way, that cupcake shop is a reflection of my identity and an extension of my identity brand. It reflects something I see in myself.
Liking a big company... what does that do for me? Not much. What does that say about me? Nothing.
Jeff: That's probably why I've never felt compelled to "like" a big company. (Maybe that's why I don't even have a Facebook account?)
Plus there's the association factor. If I like a fast-food chain I'm not going to declare it publicly. I'm not going to like an athlete's foot powder or a dandruff shampoo or adult diapers. (Not that I need any of those!) That would not only say something about me, it would say too much about me.
But I would like my local bike shop because they lead local bicycle advocacy efforts, help build new trails... and they're great guys. So liking them would say something I would feel good about saying.
Shama: For a business, what matters most is not what your brand says about you--it's what your brand says about the people you want to interact with.
The heart of building a community, whether you're a B2B or a B2C, is recognizing what that community cares about. It's not manipulative, it's not sneaky--it's the most authentic way to brand your business and grow a following online.
It's not manipulative because it's about what you do, not what you say. It's about what you do and what that says about the people who like you for doing it.
Jeff: I see and hear stuff like "Like us on Facebook!" or "Follow us on Twitter!" all over the place, and I always wonder what the business is thinking. Why would I? You haven't given me a reason.
And I'm immediately turned off when I have to "like" a business to get a discount or special offer. But maybe that's just me.
I wouldn't feel a connection to the company. It would just be a a transaction. "Here's my like, now give me my discount."
Shama: There's a much better approach that doesn't require incentives or promotions. (Although there is nothing wrong with either.)
I was speaking at a real estate conference and a number of people said they were frustrated because they had created social media platforms for their real estate businesses and nothing was happening. The problem was they had sites... but those sites didn't say anything about the people they wanted to engage.
But if they changed their focus and created a site like, say, "Why Dallas Rocks," and it was powered by Dallas Realtors... then you can get likes because it says a lot about me: I like my city, I like my community... and I like you for getting that.
The same is true for a wedding site. Say you sell bridal gowns--how many people are going to follow you? Change the focus. Create a site like "All About Brides," or "I Can't Believe I'm Engaged," or "OMG I'm Engaged!"... powered by Downtown Bridal.
Which will get more likes? The site focused on showing people what you are, or the site focused on what brides feel about themselves? Brides will want to connect with you when they know you get them.
Jeff: But what if I'm in a service business? What if my business isn't so much about products but about, for want of a better way to put it, me?
Shama: The same principle applies; in fact, when people are the focus it can be even more powerful.
That's why letting people connect with the CEO works so well. It's an extension of your brand. It's a relationship. Who would you rather connect with, a company or a person?
And that's why I resisted creating a page for our agency for a long time. I finally caved in when we decided to use it for customer service and answering questions. But it proves my point: I have over 200k Facebook subscribers, and our agency page has a few thousand. People like being able to connect with the CEO.
People want to connect with people. When you connect with a person at a business, it's like you know someone there. That's really powerful.
Jeff: Now put it into action. Tell me what to do.
Shama: The key is to forget what you want to say about yourself. Think about what your customers want to say and feel about themselves.
1. Start with your customers.Forget your brand. What do your customers see as their brand?
Forget your messaging. What is the messaging of your audience?
For example, there's an Italian restaurant nearby. The interior is splashed with pictures of the owners, their families, and generations of people who have eaten there. They encourage customers to put their pictures up. When you walk in you instantly know they care about family, about tradition... you can tell family means everything to them.
People who care about family connect with the restaurant because it says something about how they see themselves.
Think in broader terms. How do your customers see themselves? What is important to them?
2. Create a platform that integrates your customers' brand with what you offer.One of our clients runs chiropractic clinics. Many of their patients were injured in accidents. So they built a "don't text and drive" platform. They've created an entire campaign around preventing accidents. They frequently speak at schools and community events. They even created a pledge people can feature on their profiles to show it's something they care about. It's like bumper stickers on steroids.
The community cares about protecting their kids and, be honest, adults, because everyone is guilty of texting while they're driving. Our client cares about it, too. And they prove it.
Or take American Express: Who would join a social network for a credit card company? No one. So Amex built Open Forum and created a community for small business people who need information and resources. They do crazy numbers. If a credit card company can do it... you can too.
Determine what you stand for, blend that with what your customers care about, and find the right balance point.
3. Be part of a movement.Marketing has always been about you: Your needs and your objectives.
Of course the goal is to get leads and sales, but with social media you should look at something bigger, become a part of a movement... be part of something your audience cares about.
Then you get more than bottom line results: You get to be a part of something bigger and more meaningful.
The Dallas YMCA did a campaign featuring stories about their members and how the Y changed their life. In effect they created a collage of beautiful stories and pictures. Those stories mean something to people. We all want to change our lives for the better and to be around people who feel the same way.
Bottom line: Don't mistake the medium for the message. That's not what it is.
Find a way to be of service--and to be a part of something bigger than your business.

Source page : www.inc.com <http://www.inc.com/jeff-haden/basic-social-media-marketing-mistake-everyone-makes.html>

Very insightful artile to read, tells that our social media reflect who we are, help to know ourself better to 'communicate' more with people...

MondayMovies

Tittle : The Hunger Games Trilogy ; Catching Fire

Director : Francis Lawrence

Producer : Nina Jacobson& Jon Kilik

Starring : Jennifer Lawrence, Josh Hutcherson, Liam Hemsworth, Elizabeth Banks, Woody Harrelson

Distributor : Lionsgate

Running Time : 146 Minutes

Catching Fire is the second from the trilogy hunger games by the book from Suzanne Collins.  As a fan from reading the book, i think this movie is give me a very satisfying visual from my imagination as i read the book before, the moment is captured right, if i can compare from Harry Potter that had many scene that not describe the book a lot.  This movie is relief me, because no surprise entry from the plot, but the excitement from the actress and actors about how they act their role.  I can feel the thrill, the fear, worry and desperateness, especially from the main role, Katniss Everdeen that i think could be the best performance with the strong, independence, rebelious but also have many affection to her family and 'innocent' people around her.  The amusement of fashion is completed the visual effect, especially the dress wear by Jennifer Lawrence as Katniss Everdeen and Elizabeth Banks as Effie Trinket is sooo unique, then the detail of interior from the set is makes me jealous to have! (even its comes from a train).  Then the set from the forest, the combat's arena is exatly like what describe from the book (i think the detail description from the book is help too) so people would get satisfy because what in their imagination is look alike the book. I hope the next movie, Mockingjay could bring the same level of excitement like this.  Increase my mood level 5/5 to watch this monday and can't wait to have it on dvd format! Enjoy!

Star: 5/5 (five from five-very recommended)

*taken at google catching fire movie poster

3 days for a lifetime

This week is so unforgettable for me, a yudicium at my campus, yudicium for my faculty and then graduation.  Its like happiness to celebrate the joy that finally i can finish my study, but also tearful to realize that most of my friends would be gone, because they must going back to their town and work there for a long time.  

My friends at the dormitory and campus, called andalan89 is the second family for me.  Because i think they're the closest friends i ever had.  I think in a life out here i'm not easy to make friends before, to open up my feelings, building a wall so no one can let in.  But at the dorm, there is so many time we spent, so i let all that happen, to make them see how fragile i was, how crazy, how sad, or how happy i am.  I let them see who i really am.  Angry, jealous, sad, happy, fall in love then a broken heart, all the complete feeling that i share, that i tell honestly, without any 'blow-up' or 'cut-out'.  The moment that makes me feels like home, feels like something familiar and acceptable, like a family. That can accept me for everything i ever done and for every mistakes i ever made.  I think 4 years is so unforgettable and amazing.

Thank you for such an amazing years.

Sebuah tanda titik

denganmu, aku pernah belajar jatuh cinta, berulang ulang kali
begitu pula dengan patah hati dalam tangisan yang lerai berhari
mencintaimu, pernah menjadi beban bagi diriku sendiri
sedang merelakanmu, kini adalah kelegaan bagi hatiku sendiri
dan sebuah bahagia untuk awal yang baru, bagimu.

Maka masa lalu adalah tempat dimana kita tiada berpijak
waktu bukan menjadikannya tiada
hanya terlampau buru buru meninggalkan kita
yang suatu hari nanti akan melabuh jangkar
tak terjangkau di tempat yang terlampau jauh untuk aku gapai

saat ini, telah lain dalam hati hingga percuma memaksa
karena momen yang terperangkap dalam lalu
tak akan kembali

hati ini telah jauh, jatuh
pergi dan tumbuh
airmata pun telah mengering
berganti tawa dari yang lain

kita, jauh suatu hari nanti
memang tiada akan ada lagi

pontianak, 20 november 2013

Yellow

Yellow by oktriastra featuring neon yellow jeans

Casual Works

Casual Works by oktriastra featuring cotton shorts

TVSeries Week

Genre	Action/Adventure Science fiction Comedy-drama Superhero
Created by	Joss Whedon Jed Whedon Maurissa Tancharoen
Based on	S.H.I.E.L.D. by Stan Lee Jack Kirby
Starring	Clark Gregg Ming-Na Wen Brett Dalton Chloe Bennet Iain De Caestecker Elizabeth Henstridge
Composer(s)	Bear McCreary[1]
Country of origin	United States
Originallanguage(s)	English
No. of seasons	1
No. of episodes	6 (List of episodes)
Production
Executiveproducer(s)	Joss Whedon Jed Whedon Maurissa Tancharoen Jeffrey Bell Jeph Loeb
Producer(s)	Garry A. Brown
Editor(s)	Paul Trejo
Cinematography	David Boyd
Running time	43 minutes
Productioncompany(s)	ABC Studios Marvel Television Mutant Enemy[2]
Distributor	Disney-ABC Domestic Television
Broadcast
Original channel	ABC
Picture format	720p (HDTV)[3]
Audio format	5.1 surround sound[3]
Original run	September 24, 2013 – present
Chronology
Related shows	Marvel Cinematic Universe (film franchise)

Poster picture from here

So recently just spent my hours with exploring another serial movie to watch, and i find the interesting one : Marvels Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (Strategic Homeland Intervention, Enforcement and Logistics Division) At first i just get bored with my 'usual' serial and try to watch something new.  This new serial is satisfy me! (at least at the first season, updated until episode 6 for now).  

Why i love it? because the serial contains this aspects: nerd, high-technology, man in suits, actions, spy, hacker, spybase-plane and flying car! Its absolutely my type of fun :D 

I think its a 'huge' series from the technology. That explain after The Avengers Movie at the cinema, the s.h.i.e.l.d just develop and select a team that can manage the hi-tech resource and solve the 'world's problem' that related with unknown power that closely like the other heroes.

The teams collect very interesting people, two trained agents that can we say have a lack of social skills, a bio-chemical, engineer and the last recruit is the hacker that already hacked their systems from a laptop at her van.

It is always interesting when you mix people from their speciality that have a different skills.  Some just trained at the fields some just a scientist that mostly a little bit awkward.  This series gives a description about people who love, passionate about their job, very awesome job, i think :).  Especially, the team is the part of Government that hope could solve the problem in the world and can win the best situation, so they recruit people from any specialities to get different perspectives.  I hope one day my government, Indonesia could manage a professional civil servant that can be very focused and skillful for their job, so we can watch the achievement at the local news and some heroic action, even at this series, the most 'heroic' department very glad to make it keep silent and undercover. ;p

enjoy your watch!

Something In The Middle of The Night

Recently, because almost zero activity in the weekend i sleep well at the day and awake at the middle of the night. It makes me wondering and overthink.  About anything that happened at the past.  Bad effect that haunts me a guilty, loss and sorrow feeling, its just horrible.  But i know, yesterday is already gone, nothing i can do to change it, because i just have a chance to live the life today.

Being very blessed to have a religion, have something to hold on when i think i drawn.  Besides Qur'an, the most powerful book i ever read is La Tahzan.  567 pages, sometimes when i feel sad and down, i just open it random and always be more positive and inspire.  

For some reason, i'm not a very religious person.  Especially for the 'cover', but i think i have a very big respect and interest with some religious view.  For me, religion have it own purpose to make things right, to makes me keep insane, to be a reason someone to be strong, to feel motivated, loved, inspire.  Religion is the answer of your negativity, a total defencelessness to the bigger power that can wipe your worry, sorrow, guilty and whatsoever that makes your life messed, religion is the saviour.

I dont have very much belief, because some aspect just not fit into my mind, so i live my life with integrate what i get with what i feel, i'm not a total believer but i'm an open minded person that have my own filtering-system to make it right for me.  I think thats the point to mix life with religion, to make it with purpose, to know the purpose so we can 'make' it right, to not be blinded, but open the eyes and feel it in your heart.  

So, i think i will finally sleep well tonight. 

Well Said

Mencintaimu cukup seperempat saja;seperempatnya lagi patah hatiku; seperduanya lagi kemenduaanmu.

@oktriastra

Experience of experiment

Sometimes life divide at two sides, like a coin.  The coin have a side, that you can call pro and other side called cons.  Its undeniable.  So now, i'm overthink.  I just try so many random and pressure thing and that things just got into my mind.  I'll try to relax more.

All i know, whatever it is, i'll try my best.  Even sometimes i dont show my best too because somehow its just not what i want to do.  Then this is one function of my blog, to be the place to make all the busy thoughts on my head right now be a little bit quiet.  I just worry, worry about one thing and another, and let people's thought get into my head.  I regret things much too.  About what i said, what i've done.  Just so many thoughts right now.  I think i should sleep, my body feels tired but my brain still work and worry things, so i will try to do something rather than just lay in my bed.

Somehow you dont get what you want, but you allow to do all you have, maintain your resource if its all you can get.  The opportunity that you have, the only opportunity must you take to open another step, next challenge, every first time experience is a benefit to other experience.  You must realize and be here, at the present, full conscious to know that you dont 'just' do it.  You make it happen.  One thing will lead to another, watch your step and make it right at the first move you can get.  The first move is reflect your awakeness to going forward, to make something that makes you leave what you have behind.  Try to keep your negative' that will turn you into something you don't, jealousy, anger, hatred just dont fit if you can let your brain works at the positive' side.  You must full awaken to change your trigger to the other brightside.  Life is full of battle that you can't win if you dont realize who do you want to be, what do you want to do and where do you want to end for.

It is easy to find perspective, but it is hard to feel it, to think about it and keep it as our perspective.  Otherwise the things that you can write is not as easy as you can do. Perspective is one thing, doing is another thing.  I hope, what i do now is on the right tracks, open new chances, develop my self and makes me a better person, but at least, i will take it as an experience.

Happy Birthday One Of My Favourite Girl!

H-11

As i count down my time to left the campus, there is some memories that can't be forgotten.  One of them is my time with one of my fav girl, Melya.  She is one of best friend i ever had, especially, we going through some similar 'events' of romance.  :)) There is so many experience, so many lesson that will be left at the dormitory, four years is not a short-period that i've been through.  So many happiness, so many tears...

I should have a big big heart to accept all of the moment with whole package, tears and smiles, love and hate, everything.  But after all, i am very happy to going through it with some amazing friends that always support me, calm me down, show me some 'brightside'.

Writing this somehow is kinda hard cause makes me remind about what i ever go through.  Mostly i remember the pain, i remember the tears and sadness that comes over and over again, i remember how i can see my self then so pathetic and desperate.  The lowest point in my life.

And then i will feel grateful because finally i can go forward, i can go on.  I can stand up again after the fall.  Someone to accompany me at that moment is very precious, because i dont know if i ever through that situation again alone, the situation could be worse.  But thats life, and somehow now i accept it.  

Okay, done with my self, i just wishing you a very happy birthday, my beloved friend, thanks for the moment we share together, for ears that listening my story, for existence that accompany my sadness and for the joyful at my happiness.

I always wish you have the best in life!

happy birthday again, Melya Astriani

xoxo

are we remembering or forgetting?

H-12

Time flies fast, will go on, left everyone behind.  Time cant go back and cant repeat.  So what is time? Is it our standard, to measure second, minute, hour, day, but for real, what is time? Is that our memory, that measure the moment we going through, is time measure by our ability to remember things that happened in past?  So whats happen at your past that would make you to going back? Is it worth your past?

Whats the part of your past that worth enough to going back to your past?

Are you sure your present is not precious, or precious thing is just something that happened in past?

For sure, i dont know.  Sometimes memory is sweet enough to makes me close my eyes and remembering old things that even i find it hard to remember but i will always love to going back, just to feel the pain.  The experience that i would never regret, the amazing things, the painful fights or the suffering and loneliness.  

This is the last part of my college year, twelve days before the graduation that will make me leave everything behind.  I wish.  Sometimes i find it hard to let go, i always hard to let go something that not belong to me anymore.

But i know, i have to move on.

Sometimes when i'm afraid of my present, i find it easy just to going back to my past, remembering beautiful things, just want to forget, that i ever had a really good time.

For now, i still grievin, i think for the rest in my life.  There would be something to regret, and something to remind me of past.  I will never change it, i will never forget it, i just going through it, day by day while i figure out what to do, figure out whats the best for me and doing anything i could get.

Time goes on, life goes too.  

Could you make me remembering you?

A Very Happy Birthday

I think i'm an introvert person, i'm easy to be bored and annoyed with people and i enjoy my self so much.  Sometimes i dont like to be with other people, i dont have so many friends too.  Thats a rare i have a friend that last long, because i dont hang out much.  Especially when hang-out with girl-friends, sometimes i just dont have a same topic (like make up, boys over and over again*i like this topic, but not that much*).  Mostly my close friend (thats usually hang out with me) is boys.  They are less care, less drama, less 'rempong' and less sensitive. If make friends with boys, i think they will be okay if i'm quite ignore them, i dont really like to involve with all part of their life, just hang-out and do some 'fun-thing' or 'killing-time'.  So there is just a very few girls that hang out with me and i can claim it as 'my friends'.  One of them is Mega Adelika, one of my high school mate until i'm in college.  We share same 'petak' at last year in college and share some issues.  We involve at some 'detective' case (LOL), we share some curiousity about things that happened but dont want to bother others.  We share some story together, especially recently, i always share story about my latest crush and i dont bother to tell her. :))

I hope the best for you, dear friends, hope you get everything you want and you need!

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Pada api, kukatakan dalam rintik yang bagaimanapun juga memadamkan

Dalam air mata yang mengalir ini kupanjatkan doa doa yang lama belum kau kabulkan

Sembah sujud yang tidak pernah menyempurnakan segala

Hanya sesal tiada melakukan segala rupa

Maaf saja tidak pernah terkira akan terpanjat

Kepada ayah yang di tangannya mengalir dosaku tiada rupa

Kepada ibu yang di jarinya meneteskan dosaku sesamudera

Hanya doa dan sujud, kubisikkan diam diam

Dalam malam ketika bumi telah sunyi senyap

Dan cemas merembes ke sela sela hati

Tidak akan pernah cukup, tidak akan pernah sempurna

Beribu untaian maaf, dari hati

Semoga kebaikan tidak akan pernah berhenti mengaliri

Di Rumah itu

Dalam dinding batu kosong itu

Kutuliskan doa dengan air mata mengalir di atasnya

Kertas yang kosong dan layar segi empat dengan huruf angka

Kupanjatkan kesah dan keluh yang tiada henti

Jangankan mulut yang mampu berteriak tanpa arti

Katapun mampu mengalir tiada makna

Kuuraikan sebagai penghias dan pengisi kekosongan

Dalam rumah yang kosong itu

Kualiri dosa dosa, kupanjatkan doa doa

Semoga semua penghuni di dalamnya

Terbebas dari tempat yang tidak pernah kau tahu

Di rumah itu, hidup harus tetap melaju

Meski karam, dan tiada datang keselamatan

Pontianak, Senin 14 Oktober 2013

PlaylistWeek

Sometimes i hate silent, then i turn my mp3 player and start to listen some song.  There is many effect that can be made when you hear a song.  Mostly, song that i love to hear over and over again is a song that have a memory when i listen to them.  Accidently listen when i'm at a cafe with my boyfriend, or the song that my bf likes and give to me.

In the middle of the night, when mostly i can't sleep early i just turn off the light then start to listening this song.  Mostly accoustic and not to loud, then of course the main point of why i listen to music: the lyrics, add the ballad melody and its fits. This song is memorable to me, i have some special moment spend with it or the lyric just get into my head.

This is the 5 song at my playlist that i listen over and over again this week with a theme: Wondering Goodbye.  Songs that when you listen to it you just feel low because a sharp lyric that can describe what you feel when you get a heart break.  Song that can touch your heart when you close your eyes and you just listen.

Theme : Wondering Goodbye

#1. Gotten (Slash feat Adam Levine)

So nice to see your face again
Tell me how long has it been
Since you've been here
(since you've been here)
You look so different than before
But still the person I adore
Frozen with fear
I'm out of love but I'll take it from the past
I'll let out words cause I'm sure It'll never last

And I've been saving
These last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if
You don't let me
You just get me like I never
Been gotten before

Maybe it's the bitter wind
A chill from the Pacific rim
That brought you this way
(that brought you my way)
Do not make me think of him
The way he touch your fragile skin
That hunts me everyday
I'm out of love but I can't forget the past
I'm out of words but I'm sure it'll never last

And I've been saving
These last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if
You don't let me
You just get me like I never
Been gotten before
Like I never been gotten before

So nice to see you face again
But tell me will this ever end?
Don't disappear

And I've been saving
These last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if
You don't let me
You just get me like I never
Been gotten before
Like I never been gotten before

#2 Let Her Go (Passenger)

Well you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you’re missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass

Hoping one day you'll make a dream last

But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes

Maybe one day you'll understand why

Everything you touch surely dies

Staring at the ceiling in the dark

Same old empty feeling in your heart

'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep

But never to touch and never to keep

'Cause you loved her too much

And you dived too deep

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)

Will you let her go?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missin' home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

#3 Wherever You Will Go (The Calling)

So lately, been wondering

Who will be there to take my place

When I'm gone, you'll need love

To light the shadows on your face

If a great wave shall fall

It'd fall upon us all

And between the sand and stone

Could you make it on your own?

If I could, then I would

I'll go wherever you will go

Way up high or down low

I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out

The way to make it back someday

To watch you, to guide you

Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall

It'd fall upon us all

Well I hope there's someone out there

Who can bring me back to you

Run away with my heart

Run away with my hope

Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how

My life and love might still go on

In your heart, in your mind

I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could turn back time

I'll go wherever you will go

If I could make you mine

I'll go wherever you will go

I'll go wherever you will go

#4 Just A Feeling (Maroon 5)

I watched you cry

Bathed in sunlight

By the bathroom door

You said you wished you did not love me anymore

You left your flowers in the backseat of my car

The things we said and did have left permanent scars

Obsessed depressed at the same time

I can't even walk in a straight line

I've been lying in the dark no sunshine

No sunshine

No sunshine

She cries

This is more than goodbye

When I look into your eyes

You're not even there

It's just a feeling

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have, oh yeah

Cause I can't believe that it's over

You've hit your low

You've lost control and you want me back

You may not believe me but I gave you all I had

Undress confess that you're still mine

Roll around in a bed full of tears

I'm still lying in the dark no sunshine

No sunshine

No sunshine

She cries

This is more than goodbye

When I look into your eyes

You're not even there

It's just a feeling

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

No I can't believe that it's over now

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

So much to say

It's not the way she does her hair

It's the way she seems to stare right through my eyes

And in my darkest day when she refused to run away

From love she tried so hard to save

It's just a feeling

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

It's just a feeling

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

Just a feeling

Just a feeling that I have

I can't believe that it's over

I can't believe that it's over

Now I can't believe that's it's over, yeah

#5 Hung over (Kesha)

And now the sun is rising 
Another long walk back home (back home) 
There's just so many faces, 
But no one I need to know (need to know) 

In the dark I can't fight it, I fight til I'm numb 
But in the bright light, 
I taste you on my tongue 

Now the party's over 
And everybody's gone 
I'm left do with myself and I wonder what went wrong 
And now my heart is broken 
Like the bottles on the floor 
Does it really matter? 
Or am I just hung over? (you) 
Ah ah ah, ah ah ah 
Or am I just hungover? 

Even my dirty laundry 
Everything just smells like you (like you) 
And now my head is throbbing 
Every song is out of tune 
(Just like you) 

In the dark I can fight it til it disapears 
But in the daylight 
I taste you in my tears 

Now the party's over, 
And everybody's gone 
I'm left do with myself and I wonder what went wrong 
And now my heart is broken 
Like the bottles on the floor 
Does it really matter? 
Or am I just hung over? 

(You), Now I've got myself looking like a mess 
Standing alone 
Hear at the end try to pretend, but I know (but I know), 
I put up my fight 
But this is it this time (this time) 
Cus I'm here at the end, try to pretend 
Here at the end, try to pretend 
Oh, ohhh 

Now the party's over, 
And everybody's gone 
I'm left do with myself and I wonder what went wrong 
And now my heart is broken 
Like the bottles on the floor 
Does it really matter? 
Or am I just hung over (you)? 

Ah ah ah, ah ah ah 
Or am I just hungover?

#playlistweek