a life, huh ?

well, i’m not a complained that always argue, asking and pushing someone to do something. I’m not an anarchy person that will be so angry and put a gun. I’m not an emo that may feeling so mellow and feel down. I’m just an ordinary human that also have a limit. Just have a little strength to through all of this.

This is a way out to makes myself feel free. I don’t know. Like Lenka’s said, “i’m just a little girl caught in the middle, life is a maze, and love is a riddle”

and like baldybodhi saids : BORN, CONSUME,MATES AND DIE. A holly circle. For a God’s sake. I just need a peace, a save-place where i can spend all my hobby and makes my dream getting real. Even i still don't know what i'm looking for. But, is that the point we are still have life, isn't it ? If we can find and can finish our job in this world, then isn't it means we are dead enough ? Well, I just need more strength to through this. But in my deepest heart...
I sure i can through this.
Well, keep motivated.

cheers up !

singing

Kita berdua hanya berpegangan tangan
Tak perlu berpelukan
Kita berdua hanya saling bercerita
Tak perlu memuji

Kita berdua tak pernah ucapkan maaf
Tapi saling mengerti
Kita berdua tak hanya menjalani cinta
Tapi menghidupi

Ketika rindu, menggebu gebu, kita menunggu
Jatuh cinta itu biasa saja
Saat cemburu, kian membelenggu, cepat berlalu
Jatuh cinta itu biasa saja

Jika jatuh cinta itu buta
Berdua kita akan tersesat
Saling mencari di dalam gelap
Kedua mata kita gelap
Lalu hati kita gelap
Hati kita gelap
Lalu hati kita gelap

efek rumah kaca- jatuh cinta itu biasa saja

yeah, jatuh cinta itu... biasa saja ...

rain's season

hmm . some random pictures at my webcam.
a rainy day, with a hot cappucinno, and MJ's playlist.
what a maze day today.
and i never had an idea where life will bring me after this.
i dont know, absolutely don't have an idea.

hell yeah,
i don't care.
just enjoy this day more than ever.

well, i try do my best .
try to staying alive .

ckckck, boys !

ckckck
boys !
why sometimes they just screw up our mind.
i watched transformers 2 at xxi last saturday
and melt,
i means REALLY melting seeing Josh Duhamel.
What a @#$%, LOL .
i hope i can find hmm,
similar guy like that and can make him mine ! =P
but i think i almost find it.

not sooo similar. but i think. i got crush !
d*mn, recently i just got a crush and crush,
i crush into somebody, and maybe tomorrow
the boy will be someones different.
LOL . I think i want to stop feel this silly feeling.
or i just want to enjoy it.
but i think i can hurt people's feeling with what i do *evilgrin*

hey, i am single!
and i have a choice !
then, before i have "a relationship state"
am i do wrong if i just selected and see ...

but at least i know that boy must makes me melting like Josh Duhamel !
OMG . He's so hot ! LOL

goodnight...

aku benci
ketika aku menjadi orang
yang membuat senyummu tak ada lagi
aku membenci diriku sendiri
ketika aku membuat keputusan
yang aku pun tak tau benar atau salah

aku benci
ketika aku harus merasa bersalah
dengan apa
yang aku bahkan tak tahu
menyakitimu atau tidak

aku benci
ketika tak tahu apa apa
tentang dirimu
bahkan sejak dulu
aku tak pernah benar-benar yakin
tentang apa yang kau rasakan
aku tak mau dengar orang lain
ini tentang kita

dan aku benci ...
sedikit membencimu
ketika kau pergi
seperti ada sesuatu yang hilang

dan bahkan aku tak tahu apa yang telah kau hilangkan
ia memang ada
dia yang...
kurasa lebih mencintaiku
daripada kamu
kamu yang tidak pernah bilang apa-apa
kamu yang tidak pernah
berusaha membuktikan apa-apa

lalu, kenapa 24 jam sehari
aku masih bisa mendengar suara tentang kita ?

p.s :
thank you for
the amazing memories
you bring to my life,
it will last forever,
i swear...

still haven't found...

MyNiceSpace.com

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you...

I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
But yes I'm still running.

You broke the bonds
You loosened the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame

You know I believed it
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

i still haven't found what i'm looking for-u2

and i sure, i can find what i'm looking for, someday !

:)

cinderella

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me
When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free


cinderella . tata young .

this song just stuck in my head. Well, its not just about waiting and waiting someone.
But our effort to get what we want, and then let the hand's of God makes it happen, our just wait the other miracles.

Thanks God i have You .
:)

blue

melihatmu .
menatap sejenak dari kejauhan
terasa terasing
entah mengapa
hangat menyelinap perlahan
cahaya yang menusuk terasa lembut
dunia yang biru terasa tercerahkan
kebosanan yang menghentak
tiba tiba menjadi riak
seperti
bahagia yang lama belum pernah kurasakan
menatapmu sendu terasa syahdu
menelusup rindu yang tak tertahankan dari cercah kelabu
hmm .
mungkin sudah saatnya mengatakan
aku . . .
menginginkanmu .


****

today song

The song that stuck in my head ! :D

superbesties

edited by . mica

orrh . miss my besties and a weird friendship like this . LOL .
i hope we can get all of our dreams ! . ameen . ;)

dirtylittlesecret

here

well. everybody got a secret. sometimes it can be shameless. but i think, sometimes it can be . . . interesting and challenging . ..

*feel blue

fajar sudah tidak sabar lagi menunggu
menjentikkan jari mengenyahkan malam yang enggan berlama lama
aku menatapnya, kosong melompong
kusibukkan diri, tidak mau melihat
detak detak yang tak pernah berhenti
lalu lintas yang pulang dan pergi
sudah kulakukan, sudah kulakukan
aku bergegas, berlari cepat
memaksakan diri . menempuh apapun
tapi dalam segala hilir mudik ramai jengah
aku ketakutan, tersesat mengemis pada hampa
jejak jejak yang keletihan kukejar
tersesakkan, kuhela nafas berat
aku ingin berteriak marah
aku sudah lelah ! keletihan . jenuh .
maafkan aku tapi bolehkan aku merasa muak
bukan, bukan sebenarnya aku tak bersyukur
bukan, bukan pula aku ingin menyerah kalah
aku hanya ingin mengalirkan deras kepenatan
keraguan akan dimana titik ini akan berakhir
kuhirup dalam udara pagi
tidak, selama masih ada waktu
tidak, selama masih ada debar debar itu
aku tidak akan pernah menyerah kalah
tidak akan sekalipun tunduk
dan menyambut pagi kali ini
aku menegakkan kepala .
menyambut pagi yang akhirnya harus datang juga .

birthday

So glad my friends have a same birthday. Just happy birthday and wish for our happiness . .

cheers .

MyNiceSpace.com

wondering

jikalau yg lain lenyap,
tapi dia tetap ada ,
aku akan tetap ada. . .
namun jika yg lain bertahan,
tapi dia lenyap, . .
jagat raya akan menjadi tempat yang asing "~



Itu kata-kata Cathy di buku Wuthering Heights yg dikutip lagi sm stephanie meyer di eclipse sm breaking dawn . :P
just like what i feel now .

....

bolehkah aku bertanya .
satu hal, yang sampai saat ini belum tuntas kupahami
kau hadir di setiap jalan
memberi hati . menanamkan bahagia .
menyentuhkan hati dengan , mungkin cinta .
kau tulus kau tersenyum
dan kau mengerti
kau melihat apa yang tak terlihat
kau membaca hati . memahami jiwa
kau diam, kau mengamati
kau tak banyak bicara karna kau tak perlu kata
kau sendu kau malu
tapi kau mengerti, kau memahami
kau tak terlihat, tak bicara banyak
namun dalam keheningan kau mencari
kau memendam, menyimpan erat
kau membiarkannya tumbuh merawatnya setulusnya
hingga datang saatnya, tiba waktunya
engkau tak perlu bicara
aku tak butuh kata
seluruh dunia pun sudah tahu
apalagi aku
dan jawabannya? ya, tentu saja iya !

she will be loved !

me and the webcam ! xP

He makes my Life so great.  Falling in love just make my self more focus to loving and to him.  So i don't really annoyed with another problem.  Another problems just look simple if i face it with a support from him.  Uhmm . I think i'm falling in love ! (again !?) Well, i know sometimes a crush just in a moments, but i'm a lover.  And like to loving and be loved.  Its like vitamin ! :)

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset

She's going off about something that you said

She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like

And she'll never know your story like I do

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down

You say you find I know you better than that

Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

Standin by, waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know that?

You belong with me

You belong with me

I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry

I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams

I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?

Been here all along so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me

You belong with me

you belong with me-taylor swift 

The video clip is cute ! And i like the lyrics cause i think i feel the love in the same way.  *blushing*

cheers up .

going somewhere

me, mylaptop and my webcam back from course 

Well. see any resembLe ? i hope yes . LOL .

I hope i can pass the university entrance test ! ameen .

But anything will be happen.  I just sure God have a big pLan for us! .  

Its a better way, I beLieve, we as human must accept all patiently and still workhard !.

God never changes people's fate untiL that people changes them fate seLf .

cheers .

thanks God for every bLessing day .

:)