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The whirl of the wind whispering my skin then a flash on my imagination just hit me. Wondering if only i can get what i imagine so easy. What if... Then later i just wondering, then lay in my bed beside the little fan and the little ray of sunshine. Then your call wakes me up, makes me so anxious, nervous, then i feel this. Something in my stomach. Butterflies.
I already know you long long time ago before i cant remember so many things. But i knew you. I knew your existence around me. I see you in my sphere. Whiff you around without knowing you. Simple, because i have no interest at all.
I dont know is this an illution or just another manipulation from my mind because i already had someone who ever make me feel this way. But it is different. And with you, everything is have no sense and i cant sense at all.
I still remember every single detail in that night. The night when we met, when you sit in front of me then i just looking at you differently. And knowing how much this feeling grow when your eyes keep looking straight to my eyes. Then i felt it again. The butterflies.
I dont care about whats next. I dont care the fact we are never really know each other. And tomorrow we make our first met. Then i just fall in your side.
Its all i know about me. Then i dont have clear idea about you. But, i know i dont care. Like a song on Maroon 5 song, if i never see your face again, i dont mind. Even it may better if i see your face again. Again and again...
I dont have a reason to make you stay, neither do you. I dont exactly say that i want you to stay forever, neither do you. I even not really know whats on your mind. Maybe i dont care because all the fact i know you are here, with me.
Even in your silly joke about me that makes me wonder do you see me like i see you. Do you feel the same way like i feel?
I dont know where the future brings me. I try not to expect much, more than life can give me. I just want to enjoy my time, be true to my self. Speak clearly even without knowing what i really want, neither what i really need.
But be with you, even with your illution existences. I really glad...
And to be honest, you completely fix me from my old wounds. You makes me stop thinking about him. You makes me stop want him. Because now i want you. Even now i must prepare my self from keep falling from yours. But its okay. You makes another beautiful day for me.
Thank you. For this moment. I can't asking more.