Thursday, September 22, 2011

selalu

Untuk kenangan kita yang tidak akan terlupa
Untuk jengkal nafas dimana kau mengisi penuh
Untuk rongga hati dimana kau selalu berada
Kau selalu berjanji untuk menepati
Kau berjanji untuk selalu ada
Dan aku.
Akan berjanji akan selalu.
Karena memang begitu.
Selalu untukmu.
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Wednesday, September 14, 2011

sebuah panggilan yang terlambat



malam ini pertanyaan bergelantungan di pikiranmu
lalu kau menelpon
dan kita terhubung dengan cara yang misterius
"Kenapa kamu tidak menghubungiku?
"jika kau ingin kuhubungi, lantas mengapa tidak kau menghubungiku?"
"aku menunggumu"
"seperti aku. juga.menunggu"
"seperti biasanya kamu yang mencariku"
"sekarang aku akan berbeda, dan seterusnya"

sayang, cinta bukanlah bara api
yang akan terus menerus terbakar
suatu saat
ia akan seperti mentari yang mengalah pada malam
untuk jejak mendinginkan hangatnya sejenak
bersandar pada daun pohon cemara yang kokoh

cinta bukanlah mie instan
yang kau seduh lalu selesai rasa laparmu
ia adalah proses
seperti kau menanam bijih kecil
yang akan tumbuh
jika kau berikan kepadanya air,
untuk menghilangkan dahaganya
jika kau berikan kepadanya mentari
untuk menghangatkan tubuhnya yang menggigil
jika kau berikan kepadanya duri
untuk mengingatkannya untuk selalu menjaga diri

dan suatu saat
waktunya tumbuh telah habis
selesai
dan akan selalu ada selembar daun kenangan
yang akan kau abadikan
untuk menandakan aku pernah ada

The Kinship System


Case of Balai’s Subdistrict : The Kinship System

                “The system that based by kinship, will not bring anywhere but nepotism,” that is the common issues that i ever heard about the kinship’s system.   But when i feel the circumstances there the common issues that i looked just by my guess is not really right.  Not just nepotism, we can't deny all the wrong path and people who use that for the bad purpose, just see it clearly have some benefits too, about having and build a deep partnertship that having a good purpose, for better service to others.
                The kinship system is one way for us to look who’s the best, with seeing regular activities of person we choose, thats why they determine their village chief with electing.  They are the really person who knew each other.  Push away the manipulation behind it, they would calm and give their right to choose people they want, the participation there increased well.  I think it may be different at the town, when people’s being busy with their plans and close their doors tightly. They’d distrusful to each other, because you don’t know who is your friend or your enemies. 
Then with kinship system, that in my opinion just works at village’s range, means all of the policy that  we had, that’s based by a meeting with all of the element there, there must be the bureaucrat, the policy-maker, civil society, whose could be there to speak up and tell you the truth and the fact they found at the reality. 
                At my ‘PPK’ or Practice for Work’s Experience, i meet some people, whose really care about their environment, even i meet people who have a politic’s things too behind their back, i meet people in simplicity, i found them live without all the luxury facilities but they still get drunk, put some ciggarette or laughing with friends, for them, life is simple like its looks:they just think about what will they eat today, or what will they harvest from their field.  They make it simply.  Maybe i just be an outsider that no have any right to judge what they feel just with look at their face.  But they so look nice and sincere.  I feel acceptable anywhere, especially origins than newcomers.

Percakapan Sore itu

Pernah.
Sesekali aku menanyakanmu.

"Kenapa tidak pernah romantis?
kenapa tidak datang padaku
sambil mengucapkan puisi cinta
kemudian menghadiahiku bunga
dan mengingat lalu menulis kenanganmu tentang kita?"

Tanyaku kepadamu suatu hari
di sela panas terik cuaca
dan aku geram
karena kau tidak kunjung datang
saat aku diserang rindu
kau diam sejenak

"Mungkin aku tidak akan pernah jadi pujangga
aku tak suka bermain kata
biarkanlah cinta.
ada karena apa adanya
karena aku memang bukan orang yang akan menggilaimu setiap waktu
bukan pula orang yang akan merenung meresapi makna cintamu
dan menggantungkan seluruh hidupku
tapi kau selalu tau, kan?
tidak pernah ada yang lain di hidupku
selain kamu..."

Lalu secangkir teh, kuseduh dalam hangat
kuaduk dalam bulir bulir bening
dalam kedamaian aku mengerti
kamu akan selalu jadi dirimu
dan aku,
akan selalu jadi orang
yang tidak akan berhenti
mengirimkan getar hatiku, dalam puisi...
untukmu

kita



Hujan. aku selalu mencintai hujan.
karena ia mengingatkanku tentangmu
tentang kita .
yang basah oleh hujan dan peluh.
berlari lari mencari teduh.
kita .
lalu kau tarik jaketmu dan kau tudungkan untukku
ya, itu kita.
yang tidak akan pernah benar jadi kita.
yang tidak akan pernah diijinkan semesta untuk bersama.
bersamamu adalah oase dalam terik sengat mentari
hangat dalam damai matamu
tenggelam dalam tatapanmu
kau tidak akan pernah jadi milik seseorang
kau tidak akan pernah jadi milik siapapun
karena kau bilang akan selalu terbang bebas
meninggalkanku
melupakanku
seperti biasanya...

Friday, September 9, 2011

i have no idea

Now i still waiting for my meeting with my trainer about 15minutes. I hope it will going right after 2 days he pending to see my assignment because she was busy and dont want to spent more hours search was wrong at my assignment. Yeah alright, take learn from this people to always be the best at your work, then be a professional untik you be success, then people not underestimate you or being so busy, be the people who others people need, but take this lesson to always serve your client best. This is a big lesson for me, i know sometimes with my incompetence skills, i ignored people. Now i know what it feels. It hurts. Then this is the moral story of the day.

Story behind the capture : just listening my cellular then i dont need to listen the noisy machine constructions beside my room!
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Tuesday, September 6, 2011

We



Holiday is closely over.  Now we try to start a new fight for dreams, hopes, and all wanted things in life.  
I prayed for my lifes, my family, my campus, my social-lifes, my academics, my skills, my relationships to getting better and better. Life is short, i want to design it with all the right thing and right way, then i want to pray and do all my best for keep things going.  I want to keep up my fire to be passionate and more passionate to through life, i want to more motivated to success, i want more and more, and playing life like a game thats not about winning, but getting involved and having desired to do what you do.
My future job maybe not the best job that i ever imagined, but i force myself to like it, teach myself to keep being grateful then learn as much as i could absorb with my brain.
Start a new things, keep motivate, do my best, and pray, so i have accompany to keep me to strong, God.
Start a new semester with bismillahirahmanirrahim...
:)

Monday, September 5, 2011

how i spent holidays



 

taken at 2 august 2011
a trip to pasir panjang beach


aku membencimu...
seperti terang dan gelap
seperti mentari dan awan
| meniadakan |
dan entah kenapa aku benci
benci menjadi tiada.
saat tak menyatukan waktu
membekukan jarak
denganmu ...



                c            c
          i           i           i 
              n  kamu   n
                   t       t
                       a
                         ....


Sunday, September 4, 2011

Geez

My lovely shoes that always accompany me in sadness nor happiness *blink*

I am simple person that not too much caring about going to shop, i love shopping, but i don't want to waste my money for temporary things, i really prefer to buy something that i could use-forever.  *Its not an adds* but at Idul Fitri i always buy one shoes.  And this year, then last year i buy one shoes that have same brand : vicari from buccheri's shop.  Its cheap for me, about 100.000-200.000 rupiah, then other shop at mall that when i put one shoe to look around i just look at the price 700.000 and second shoes i put 800.000 rupiah. Ouch ouch.  It hurts, people ! Why they are sooo expensive! i may have money, but its not for SHOES, that i will not use it anywhere~ i just make it once for my holiday, and then one year i must spent at my dormitory using uniform in whole day, than its not worth for me ! Arghh . Then i should thing to open the shoe's shop ! Then i could use and make any model i love ! LOL.  :)

voluntering

descripting what i'm passionate about ?
 My friends tried to stand 'pinang' for panjat pinang competition
 The local kids, going to the top of 'pinang's tree then get some merchandise :)
The elementary kids, playing 'Balap Karung' to compete others getting some merchandise

this picture was taken by android apps, retrocamera with my galaxy tabs
taken at Kecamatan Balai, Kabupaten Sanggau,17 august 2011

i am passionate about life and all things i can explore with all my potential.  I am hard-worker, easy-going, and easy to adapt with anything.  I have a big passionate to learning and doing.  Especially fot my future job : a bureaucrat.  In my country, the biggest fail of government and the biggest mistakes is : to much case of corruption that makes government going to bangkrupt, then the biggest pathetic things is : too much poor and public's problem that makes our country left behind the other country. I know since i was kids, Indonesia is rich, multiculture, and beautiful, but not anyone could enjoyed it because the lack of infarstructure, the damaged road that makes access to other place is hard, the electricity that can't enjoyed by all of the civil, the water, hard to get, the acceess of public service like health and other.  And me? Now i'm a government's students with scholarship, will not waste my country's money. i want a change for my country and make my best to helping poor.  I want to see their pure smile, and a relief, because they will have the same chance.

movies

Fast Five !  I just watched this movie and ... wow. It just like wow... I always love action movies plus sexy woman-in-action.  I'm crazy about a woman's figure whose bad, thin but also smart ! LOL. Like i love Elektra, Kill Bill, I am number four, for all woman-in-action, especially spy, or gangster but doing action not at murder scene but like driving a really fast car or shot a gun or even a kungfu without blood.

FastFiveGoogles

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Rethough

Kadang dalam hidup, kita tidak akan pernah tahu apa yang akan terjadi, membangun keyakinan pada yang pasti, sama dengan membangun kepada ketidakpastian.  Yang tidak akan terjalankan.
Seperti hubungan kita, mungkin akan terasa bergejolak dan indah, dan suatu saat kau tidak akan pernah tahu akan jatuh dan yang tertinggal hanyalah kejenuhan.  Aku tidak berubah, kamu mungkin juga tidak berubah.  Waktu yang berubah. Jalan takdir.  Aku tidak akan pernah tahu sampai kapan.  Bisa saja ia kejenuhan itu akan serta merta hilang, dan memunculkan oase dan keindahan baru. dan aku akan tercengang takjub.  Atau mungkin kejenuhan itu menemui masanya.  Dan kita berpisah.  Aku tidak akan pernah tahu.  Begitu juga kamu.  Kita tidak perlu bergantung pada siapa-siapa, kita tidak perlu melepaskan diri dari siapa-siapa.  Hanya kita.  Berjalan pada bumi yang terus berputar, membawa manis dan pahit, dan semua rasanya dalam hidup.  Kita tidak akan benar-benar hidup.  Bila kita tidak berjalan di atasnya.  Dan aku hanya akan membiarkannya.  Seperti aku membiarkan kupu-kupu untuk tetap hinggap, seperti aku membiarkan air untuk terus mengalir.  Menempuh dan menjalani siklusnya sendiri.  Dan suatu saat, ketika tangan-tangan tak nampak itu meletakkanku, di tempat dimana kamu berjalan, dan kita akan berjalan bersama.  Di saat itulah akan kusyukuri penuh hikmat.  Bahwa aku.  Bersamamu.