So i just find so much space in my head, my heart, my time. Its empty, and everywhere i look its just nothing. I dont know if its kind of depressing or what but i know i must change this. Maybe its started when i meet a guy that feels like complete me, we spend a lot of time together. I think he can fill my emptiness... Even i know we cant be together, but i'm happy with him. And then one thing to another i must leave him, or he finally understand that he must leave me.
and after he left,he just leave a hole. A hole that bigger than before. A hole that i cant understand how to fill it when i just not motivated to do anything. Killing time just with sleeping and sleeping and i wake up getting no peace but a loss more than before.
And then i wake up and write this. Try to find out what to do, by write it. Even i really have no mood to write something, or express any feeling. But i just write, not because i want, because i must.
At first, i spend my time running. About one hours.
After that i buy a dvd, this is a list:
1. The Imitation Game
2. Love, Rosie
4. The Woman In Black 2: Angel Or Death
5. The Boy Next Door
6. Wild Card
7. Fugitive At 17
I still think to find something interesting to do. I want to being busy as many as i can, so i can sleep feel tired and cant think about anything. But i dont want to do many things too. Ya. that complicated.
Tomorrow i will buy a book, or find a library to extend my card.
I have to get busy with something.