Leopard Shoes

Because the last time i bought a shoe is last idul fitri, -,-; then when i look a shoe shop close to my house i just stop and see the shoe, and i buy it for 60 000 IDR ( i dont know this is cheap or more expensive) but its worth because i buy it not at the market center so its okay.  Now i think i would use flat or like ballet shoes because its casual and my last high heels is not comfort to use at my activity, this leopard is really comfort and smooth.  I think i would buy some shoes again because i can use it anyway for my invest later after i graduated and not use uniform at my whole time.  More variation of things really make my day. <3

New Book : The Hunger Game by Suzanne Collins

its very rare for me to read a book and really have a big passion to finish it as soon as possible because interested as movie.  When i read this book, its really makes me feel i involved and be her.  Read the book give me a feeling like watching a real movie or event, makes me keep noisy when i read it :)

Tittle : The Hunger Game

Author : Suzanne Collins

Pages : 374

Publisher : Scholastic (United States)

( Translate in Indonesia )

I'm in love with 'The Hunger Game' at first when i see the 'coming soon' trailer on xxi before i watch Mission Impossible : Ghost Protocol on last January.  Then i'm in love with Jennifer Lawrence, even i still dont read the book and dont know anything about the hunger game book.  Then i update a twitter status on my twitter account, @ok3astra and my father's friend @rianariyudha tell me he have that book.  I just say i may interested reading it but i dont really have a think that the book is really fun, i thought it could be boring book because most element of the story is fiction with a fighting action so it just can represent by watching the movie.  After a month and weeks, finally he borrowed me the book, The Hunger Game and the second book, Catching Fire.  After back to my dormitory i feel lazy to read it because mid term would held in two weeks but i read the first page and then really passionate to finish it until i sleep late at dawn :) I really love this book.

The hunger game, tell you a story about a smart and tough girl, Katniss Everdeen that always support her family.  She really love her daughter, Primrose and really take an act as a parent because her mother cant survive any longer after her father’s dead.  She lived in Panem, which called as District 12, mostly worker there is the miner.  She illegally hunt at the restricted forest with her childhood friend, Gale.  At their life, people at Panem and other 12 district, have to join a game that held by the powerful city there, Capitol, who dominated all the distribution of the district’s work.  At their game, live on television, they must gambling to be chosen, all the district’s people must involved there, start 14 years old until 18 years old.  

This is the first year of Primrose, the daughter of Katniss involve at this gambling, unfortunately, Primrose’s name has been choosen as the representative of district 12.  Katniss really upset and give herself to join this battle-to-death game.  With autodidact skills that she have from her father, the survival skills she have because her responsibility to protect her family. She have a good opportunity to raise her talent and survival skill in this game and get a right and smart mentor, Effie and Haymitch even Haymitch always sarcastic and get drunk at first, she also supported by the talented fashion-mentor, Cinna that could make a fantastic fashion and gown for her appearance in television.  The brutally things that she must face at the hunger game with all the setting, and her friendship with her challenger, Rue and her challenger from same district, Peeta makes the game at there be more dramatic because she finally have a choice : Kill or Killed.

pelan pelan saja

Aku kalut. Takut
Resah dan terburu buru
Kemudian awan gelap
Dan hujan pun turun rintik rintik
Membasahi kalut yang sedikit sedikit
Aku ketakutan hingga
Kebingungan menerpa
Hingga kau jatuh dan semakin jauh rupanya

Dan kau pun berkata sejenak...
Cintai aku sedikit sedikit saja
Karena rasa itu selalu ada...
Cintai aku perlahan
Karena kamu takkan banyak
Meminta apa apa
Ikhlaskan aku sedikit saja
Longgarkan hatimu sedikit
Agar hilang jengah dan keributan yang kau terpa
Tenangkan dirimu sejenak...
Karena aku.
Akan selalu mencintaimu.
Tapi pelan pelan saja...

Minggu, 25 Maret 2012

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seperti kita.

Kita, adalah sepasang sekrup yang tua, usang dan berkarat

Kemudian dipaksakan berputar

Mentari yang telah tua

Yang dipaksa menghadang gelap malam

Kita ada bukan karena ada

Kita, baling baling yang telah kehilangan separuh balingnya

Kupu-kupu yang kehilangan separuh sayapnya

Dan berjalan tidak seimbang

Kita, hanyalah aku yang kupaksakan menyatu

Dalam menopang takut itu sendiri

Karena aku rapuh bila hanya menyangga tersendiri

Kapankah aku akan mengerti

Bagian itu tidak lagi sama

Bagian itu tidak lagi seperti dulu

Bagian itu telah pupus dan hancur

Kemudian aku yang naïf masih ingin ia ada

Sama.

Sama seperti dua tahun yang lalu.

Sama seperti baling-baling utuh untuk kita berdua.

Menikmati jejak sayap kupu kupu

Menjejaki langit.

Sabtu, 24 Maret 2012

I Miss You. So Bad

What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin for the phone to ring
It's gettin lonely livin upside down
I don't even wanna be in this town
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

What time is it where you are?
5 more days and i'll be home
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone
I been keeping busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed

I've been keepin busy all time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy
I miss you so bad
I wanna share your horizon
And see the same sunrising
Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me

I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

-  Now Listening : Jetlag verse Simple Plan ft. Kotak 

The Stick Master

Marching Bands Goes to Mempawah

At March, 4th 2012 our marching band team accompanied my senior to the office of Mempawah's proconsulate.  They would stay at Mempawah, spread at 9 village at Toho.  That is their part of to arrange their script, to make program and implement it at the villages.  At this event, we accepted by the deputy of Mempawah regency.  This is irman's hometown and his parent is come to visit and watching.

wiggy

hmm you know, when you dont have something, you just can be creative, and use things around you.
:)

sebelum waktu

aku mengetuk ngetuk di pintu yang tertutup itu.
Perlahan.  Dalam, khidmat dan diam.
izinkan aku masuk dan tenggelam...
kemudian tampaklah pualam
yang indah dan sempurna
indah, sempurna tapi percuma
hanya kesia-siaan yang pahit

kita hanyalah engsel dan pintu yang tak lagi pas
karena rotasimu yang telah bergeser meski sedikit
dan aku hanya mulai lelah dan berderik

kita mungkin satu, tapi sudah tak lagi sama
tahukah kamu? tidak ada yang indah dari kepura-puraan
tidak ada yang baik dari kemunafikan

kita berpisah bukan karena hati yang tak lagi merasa
tapi karena memang semuanya sudah saatnya

seperti induk burung yang akhirnya akan melepas anaknya terbang tinggi, pergi jauh
busur panah yang akhirnya akan dibiarkan melesat...
mencari takdirnya sendiri...
mereka saling melepaskan bukan karena sudah tidak ada yang tersisa
hanya semuanya sudah ada waktunya

Movie Time

One of a heartbreaking movie i watch.  A love story about Emma Morley and Dexter Mayhew.  They are friends, start meet when they'r at school, then always meeting at 15th July for twenty years.  Emma Morley, is not-too-attractive girl, smart but not to success after her graduation and start a simple life with working.  Then Dexter, whose a reckless, flirtilicious and attractive man enjoy his life as a tv presenter.  They are always keep in touch, talk and spend a day like a good friend, sharing about their dreams and problems.  I think this is romantic when Emma, realize that she had a crush on Dexter and every second at her life is enlighten by Dexter.  But she know, that Dexter is not really into her, so she try to be a best friend for Dexter.  After twenty years passed, she still can't move on and totally can't erase Dexter on her mind.

Finally, after a dissapointed realtionship, a failed marriage of Dexter and Sylvia.  They finally found their way.

Then they are married, and try to have a baby and still fail.  And at an afternoon Dexter and Emma make an appointment to a coffee shop and on the way Emam got an accident and dies.  Dexter's life be more sad and depressed after her dies.  Then he haunt by Emma's presence since twenty years ago in his life.  An advice from his dad is just keep living, pretend that Emma still life around him, just like his father pretend that his wife, who died because of cancer ten years ago and keep living, then Dexter start to cry.  And the movie just show the moment Dexter can remember with Emma, a nice afternoon at the beautiful backyard.

[last lines]

Dexter: Look, I've gotta go.

Emma: I know.

Dexter: But we will see each other again.

Emma: I know we will.

[smiling she turns to walk away]

Emma: Goodbye, Dex.

Dexter: Goodbye.

Emma: Goodbye.

[he watches her as she walks away and then turns to walk the opposite way]

...

This is the heart-breaking movie.  Sad, because of Emma just lit up with Dexter and still can't move on from her feeling for twenty years, really need a good luck to finally have a way to come back, and find that Dexter feel the same way.  Touched.  And Sad.  The moral of the story is, never let people you love go.  Because, you just dont know how far fate will bring you go.  A mysterious way of being separated.  You will never know.  Being grateful for what you have now.  Not ignoring each other, and life best for all the moment you have...

xoxo

joke ?

This picture is a twitter's trending topic on Saturday, February 18th 2012 and makes me laugh.  It is a sarcasm, i think to making a joke for our president.  A quite disrespect to our leader.  But his performance its not quite as well.  From the critical journalist, news and debate on tv they describe him as a leader who mostly care about his image.  For politics, its good to make some good image.  But now, after he elected to a president, he cant be a total politican. He must realize now he must make a choice for his people, not his party.  The major point people elect him i think because he is ex-military so people have a faith he can be more clear to his vision.  And with his political brand , "Say No to Corruption" is not really happening.  Start from case and case that may point to him and his party.  Especially the happening case now, with his party, demokrat or democracy that involve Nazaruddin and Angelina Sondakh that guessed just tell lie and lie to the court as a suspect of corruption.  The 'big' corruption because invoked a lot of money that may impossible to work alone, impossible to enjoy it alone, and not related to them and their party's connection.  Maybe KPK still can't make them stay at jail.  But people start to lose their trust, when our president give a speech at local television, then announce not about the critical issues to our country, but announce about how good he are.  Without any clear action to prove.

Maybe it is just my absurd opinion after i start my duty to nightwatch at my dormitory.  But for me, he still not my best role model if there is someone asking me about my favourite leader.

and, i just wonder, isn't this picture rude or may people who make it (or published it) would have any trouble ?

xoxo

2week after

Finally exam for 5th semester is over, start from anthropology and ecology for governments, public service management, statistics, regional potency and analysis, public policy, development planning, city and village development interaction.
Then I have training exam, land reform, English, staff analysis and meeting of development planning.
And the exhausted part is samapta. Samapta is physical exam and the standart is raising all years. For this year, my minimum standart is to run about 1777 metres, or around that, sit up 40times, push up 32 times and channing 38 times. I can pass the standart even cant be the best.

This monday 6th semester would start. And i feel curious about the lecture. I hope at this semester the lecture could bring more energy than a sleepy head in the class. But anything the problem is, i must keep fighting to keep my dream alive. Because this is my path, this is my job and my way for now. I must be more ambisionist and more obsess with it so i can raise my knowledge. I hope i will be more productive and good at this government things.

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New Entry

I just feel blank to post here.  Routine activity sometimes make me feel lost in the programmed things.  But i think i would express and write more.  5th semester is closer now.  And just exciting have a hope to graduate next year.  One year to go, yeah. I must have more anthusiast to face this year.  New resolution, and new beginning to start all over the best.

At the holiday, i attend my long-family marriage and have some quality time with cousins and nieces that have not meet for a long time.  And i just realize that at 2011 i just buy uniform clothes, and a few clothes for idul fitri ( i think three) then for this holiday season i buy nothing.  So i just search, mix and match my old clothes (years ago). Hmm i think fashion is never getting old. :)

This wednesday i got pesiar, from around 2 pm until 7 pm.  I hang-out with my bf and dad, eat at Red Bean, and feel very full because i and my bf eat a lot. LOL.  Tomorrow is my daddy's 47 birthday, and he buy me 3 books (why he buy me a gift ? he is the one who celebrate) I feel very happy because i feel blessed to have him and i'm very grateful.  I love my dad very much !!!

3 books to read

xoxo

My little puppy

I have a new puppy name Brawr, my father is get it from his friend.  So cute.  Even keeping it makes some contradiction. LOL.  But i really like it.  I think it is nice to have some accompany.  Maybe if i have my own house later i want to keep one anggora cat and one little cute dog.  :)

ho (me) li day

My boyfriend give me a nice present, his present at my home.  I'm very happy because i miss him so much.  He drive with his new motorcycle from Mempawah, Kabupaten Pontianak, spent +-3 hours to my home.  So, we spent a day together then he take a photoshoot with me.  (Unfortunately i can't find someone else to take our photo) :( But i really happy. I hope our relationship would last ! 

*This is a fake photoshoot because you can't ride a motorcycle with highheels, anyway*

Mimpi Sejuta Dolar

Me and Mudricca go to Gramedia Pontianak then we buy a book and have a nice dinner at Solaria. Then at the best sellers shelf i found this book, i follow @merryriana account and i think this book have a positive comments from others. So i buy it.  You can visit her website too at www.merryriana.com.  She such an inspirational lady that can motivate us, especially women to wake up and hard work.

Tittle : Mimpi Sejuta Dolar

Author : Alberthiene Endah

Third Edition : November 2011

Publisher : PT. Gramedia Pustaka Utama, Jakarta

362 Pages

Reading Status : Completed

xoxo

Cerita yang mengalir berdasarkan kisah hidup nyata Merry Riana ini sungguh menginspirasi.  Dari awal dia masuk ke Nanyang Technology University di Singapura dengan keterbatasan bahasa inggris dan uang yang pas-pasan karena perpindahannya yang mendadak dari Indonesia, hingga penghematan luar biasa yang harus dia lakukan, menahan lapar dan hanya makan mie dan roti seadanya hingga kini berhasil sukses menginspirasikan wanita di seluruh dunia dengan penghasilannya sebesar satu juta dolar di usianya yang ke dua puluh enam.  Cerita ini sangatlah menarik, karena dirangkai dengan kata-kata yang sederhana, detil namun tetap ringan mengalir menjadikannya bacaan yang santai namun tetap memberikan makna tentang arti perjuangan, lewat kedisiplinan yang tinggi serta kesabaran mengahadapi proses dalam kehidupan.  Tidak ada yang gratis di dunia ini, pay it forward or pay it later.  Dalam setiap hal ada harga yang harus dibayar.   Selain menceritakan tentang perjuangan Merry Riana, di dalam buku ini juga terselip kisah cinta Merry dan suaminya sekarang, Alva yang menurut saya begitu realistis, dan indah.  Karena mereka adalah partner yang saling mensupport dari bawah, saling menguatkan ketika mereka benar-benar berada di titik nol dan dililit kemiskinan.  Beruntung kerja keras mereka akhirnya terbayar, sekarang mereka mampu keluar dari zona kemiskinan hingga menjadi miliarder seperti sekarang.

Membaca buku ini kemudian membawa saya untuk melihat saya, sekarang.  Di umur yang ke 20 ini, apa yang sudah saya lakukan? Saat ini saya hanya mampu berjuang di tempat saya yang sekarang, melawan semua kejenuhan, dan keterbatasan untuk menempa diri saya terus berkembang meski dalam keterbatasan waktu, tenaga dan pikiran yang terkuras untuk sebuah kedisiplinan hidup di asrama, serta birokrasi yang ketat.  Menyesal? Tidak perlu dan terlanjur, mungkin ini lah jalan yang terbaik untuk saya, malah di asrama saya mendapatkan pelajaran-pelajaran yang penting dalam kehidupan.  Ke depan, semoga saja saya bisa lebih baik dari sebelumnya.  Melangkah maju.  Selangkah demi selangkah ke depan.  Bismillah.

The Labyrinth : The Review

" “If you can't have what you love, love everything you have - French Proverbs."

Alice, is a volunteer who spent her summer at Pyreness, Sabarthes Mountain at archeology things.  Then she start her journey alone to a mysterious place where she found a ring with an ancient pattern she cant understand.  Then she found herself searching by mysterious people. 

Alais, the healer and herbalist that write a journal and be a secret-safer from the civil war.  The journal is written with symbols and diagrams that Alice can't really understand.  The journal of Alais actually keep a secret from the buried, and there are people want it and hunt Alice.    

Then a nightmare haunt Alice, she have a vision being Alais that haunted by something that want her book.  Both of them, in past or in the present is haunted by same nightmare.  About a destiny that would connect them, or even a reincarnation?

I like the twist plot. And give a nice story to read.  To fill the relax time at the night or afternoon.  But maybe i dont really like the oldies setting because its seems not clear for me (i dont have the imagination about it) So i just cant imagine another things. 

I'm not finish it yet now.  Maybe want to pending to next time i feel really bored.

Holiday Reading

Tittle : Labyrinth 

Author : Kate Mosse

Publisher : Orion Books, London 2005

Traslated Publisher : Penerbit Qanita, PT Mizan Pustaka, Bandung

Translated Pages : 673

Days Read Target : 3 Days ( Saturday - Sunday - Monday)

Review : Coming Soon

For my holiday, i want to read this book, Labyrinth by Kate Mosse.  Hmm.  Maybe at this holiday i dont have so much plan, because i still can't make my own money to waste. :) So i prefer to save it, and just enjoy what i have now.  The new year maybe would be a precious time to enjoy because 2012 would full of schedule, after i back to my college, at there would be a test for final semester 5, then physics test to go.  *having that idea just makes me tired* and... here we go... i will make some resolution (again) at power point for 2012.  Wish me luck guys ! :)

history from the buried

Mandor is one of place at West Kalimantan that have historical moment. A life witness seeing how many fighter must die, thousands leader in all West Kalimantan died on Japanesse company's hand. Because of politics. Its all about power. How people could kill their humanity for something materials.
The shocking news also shocking me, a student college die while demo to the council, Sondang, then farmers killed at Mesuji, because of palm oil company.
I still dont have clear idea for my future. I dont know will i gonna be fighter that may die in pride, or common people? sometimes i feel there is something in this life i must achieve, to be reminded, to be a story. But for that i also have something to suffers.
Can I? May I just want to life peacefully, but I know I must fight for all I want to. At least for myself, for my pride( but not for extreme way) and for people that always supports me.

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nature calls

Survey on  the road for campus night event.
Location : Purnama Street, Pontianak City, West Kalimantan

When you are busy making plans.  There would be a time for you to take a breath.  To walk slowly.  To be concious about your present, your purpose to the world, its not just about get all you want, but it also to enjoy every moment you breath... Enjoy every precious things in your life.  To feel more... Alive.